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Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Baby #2 Pregnancy Update 40 Weeks & 4 Days!

Well here I am, 5 days past due with this little babe. 
To put it lightly, I am freaking over being pregnant!!!
Lets just have this thing already!
It has been so annoying having to wait, but once my due date came and went, people have been texting and messaging me letting me know they are thinking about me, which is SO nice and SO appreciated while I wait around uncomfortably for this baby to come! It is seriously so nice to know that people are thinking about you while you are just at your wits end! So thank you to all of you who read my blog and have checked in on me! 

36 Weeks!
My due date was Thurs the 18th. Today is Tues the 23rd.
I went in for what I hope to be my last check up with my midwife, but then again I thought last weeks would be the last one so who knows! They had me do a NST and everything looked good! My next appointment is on Thurs, they want to see me sooner now that I am past my due date if the baby hasn't come by then. My hope is that it will come on Wed. London was 8 days past due so who knows, could be Friday. I hope not tho. We are all pretty antsy around here for this baby to get here.   

on our way into what we thought would be our last midwife appt
Non-Stress Test at the birth center
Anyways, I thought I would do my last update for this pregnancy while I am actually still pregnant!!

Things have been pretty uneventful pregnancy wise, which is good. A few weeks ago I had my StrepB test done and I was anxious to see what I would test because I tested positive with London (strepG) and ive heard that when you test pos you always test pos, but this time I was negative!! That means I definitely will not need an antibiotic during labor! That was the BEST news!!

Take home outfit if it is a girl!

Since Thursday I have been having some swelling in my feet and hands and face, which is really super annoying. I had to take my wedding rings off at church yesterday because they were just getting so uncomfortable. Up to this point I haven't noticed any new stretch marks, I have been super lucky in that department with my pregnancies and only have a few very light stretch marks on my belly. I am pretty much out of clothes that fit. I didn't buy any maternity clothes this time around and I am regretting it now, so note to self for future pregnancies: get some maternity clothes! 

37 Weeks!

I have had the nesting bug for awhile now, and have cleaned so much the last few days! I've been wanting to get all the door handles and cupboard handles and blinds and things like that cleaned since we moved in here and finally got around to it. (which is funny because I blogged this exact same thing during my last pregnancy lol.) I spent a couple days just deep cleaning the house, and my mom came over and helped which was super nice! I have the house completely organized and all our bags have been packed for a few weeks so we are ready to go whenever this baby is!

38 Weeks!

I did some things to get ready for my post partum care, made an essential oil perineum spray (Lavender, Frankincense, distilled water) and padcicles (Lavender, Aloe gel, Witch hazel and freeze) which I also did with Londons pregnancy. I ordered some tucks pads and some soothing gel nursing pads on amazon and a few things that will help me feel put together and treat myself to in those first post partum days. I learned quickly after my last pregnancy that it is important to take care of myself, put some makeup on, shower, things like that. I went and got my hair done to help in that department  and actually plan on getting my lashes done shortly after I have the baby because I lose a lot of them after pregnancy, and it is a way for me to feel put together with no effort which is nice because there isn't a ton of time to take care of yourself when you have a newborn. It is alot harder. I also ordered a diaper bag and some new crib sheets as well as the attachment for our stroller that will allow for the baby seat to attach. We are ready!

new hair

Renee came over one day and helped me prepare some freezer meals. We made a couple batches of taco soup, a couple batches of chicken enchiladas, a bunch of breakfast burritos, and some chicken and ground beef to add to pastas or tacos or whatever we may need them for. 

39 Weeks!

I made a little "welcome home baby" sign and some felt ball garlands to hang. I made a girl one and a boy one so I am prepared for either! =)
I got the side sleeper set up and washed all the baby blankets and burp cloths! 
All the baby clothes are sorted by size and gender so once we know what this baby is we can pull the clothes right out. Krissie gave me a bunch of clothes, mostly girl stuff, and we have some if it is a boy but will definitely need to be buying some stuff if it is a boy. I picked out the take home outfits ( a boy one and a girl one) to bring to the birth center. They are so cute! Can't wait to get them on our little baby! 

40 weeks!
London has been so sweet and has been giving the baby lovies and kisses and saying hello and singing to it. Its so cute!

I am excited to see how she reacts to the baby! When I ask her where the baby is she will point to my belly, which also makes for a nice pillow apparently =)

Brock sent me this the other day, and it pretty much sums it up!

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Baby #2 Pregnancy Update 34 Weeks!!

     Well it has been 16 weeks since I last blogged/did a baby update so here I am.
One of my goals entering into this new year is to blog at least once a month. I am hoping to do way more than that cause I would really like to get somewhat updated on here, but I didn't want to put too much pressure on myself, so one per month it is! (I will scatter in a few baby bump pics throughout this post)

20 Weeks!

     I really should have done this update at 28 weeks, when I was still loving being pregnant, and everything was going so well! That's not quite the case now lol. 

     I am currently 34 weeks and 3 days. Once 30 weeks hit, things started to change a bit. I became super uncomfortable, pretty much no matter what i do. Sleeping sucks, I can't to much during the day, otherwise by the time evening comes, I can barely move because my back hurts so bad. That makes it really hard to get much done. Maybe one errand and that's it. When i push myself, which i usually do, i end up paying for it later.

24 weeks!!

     I really do love being pregnant, but the end of this pregnancy has been a lot more uncomfortable than my first. 
I have experienced some really painful discomfort in my pubic bone, which is new to me this time around. All around I am just much more uncomfortable. BUT....
I have  a healthy little baby growing inside me! As long as that is the case, this is all worth it

     Here are some more updates:

Weight gain: up until 28 weeks I was up like 5 lbs from my pre pregnancy weight thanks to working out with my trainer, And then we moved, and I had to quit with my trainer and now my total weight gain is around 23 lbs. I REALLY want to stay under what I gained with London which was 40, but I am slowly creeping up there. I guess I will be happy just as long as I don't go over that. 

Cravings: I have been craving fry sauce like crazy. I get fries with fry sauce every chance i get! I have also been craving mashed potatoes and gravy and corn. I can't even count how many bowls of that stuff I have had. And they aren't small bowls either! I just can't get enough! During the holidays I also ate a lot of celery with the squeeze cheese. I know, totally appetizing right?!

Names: We are super undecided on names. Brock now isn't totally set on Wesley for a boy because it reminds him of someone he knows. I am second guessing Evie, which is a name I mentioned liking in my last post. One we have added to the list of boy names is Dallas. I also heard a couple names yesterday I kinda liked for a girl, one was Tate, and the other was Hollis. The only problem with Hollis is it made me think of Hollister, which is annoying. Anyways I feel like our child is just going to remain nameless lol. 

Birth Center/Plan: Well since we have moved since my last post this has changed a little. We are now in North Salt Lake, so I can have the baby at the Salt Lake center!! I am soooo happy about that. They also have opened up a few other locations so the midwives don't rotate through each facility like they used to. There are now 3 midwives at my location that will stay at that location, which means that I wont get the midwife that I don't really like. (There is one there that I am not a fan of, and now I wont have to worry about her being at my birth!)
28 weeks!
Don't mind the mess from moving behind me, and we can thank London for the nasty mirror that needs to be washed!

     Other things of note:

I had my Gestational diabetes test done and that went well so that is good!
At my next appointment I will have my GBS test done, which will be interesting because with London I tested positive for Group G (not B) which is really rare,, the midwives hadn't even heard of it! I'm anxious to see what I test this time around!

I have started letting a little bit of anxiety creep in about giving birth, which I need to nix completely, but I know what to expect this time around, so it makes me a little nervous. With London, I prepared myself for MONTHS before she came, for a natural birth and it went perfectly. I just hope that it will happen that way this time around. 
I haven't been preparing myself this time around like I should be and really need to start working on my hypno babies tools!

    I guess that's all for now! If I remember anything else I will add it to the next update! Only 6 more weeks to go!!

32 weeks!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Pregnancy update: baby #2 18 weeks!

    Well I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone already!  I'm almost half way through!  Here are some of the latest pregnancy happenings,  in no particular order.
     I have my one and only ultrasound in 10 days and I am sooooooo tempted to find out the sex!  Brock is still set on no knowing until it comes so if I  did find out it it would be a secret for Brock still!  Thats no fun,  right?! 
     Weight gain:  so far since being preg I've lost 6-8 lbs so no gain yet.  Im trying really hard to not gain the 40 lbs I gained with London,  because I started this pregnancy a good 15 lbs heavier than I was when I got pregnant with london so I've been working out 3 days a week with a personal trainer and plan on doing that throughout the pregnancy and after.  It will be interesting to see if there is much of a difference in weight gain. 
     Cravings:  I've been craving allll the shell fish!  Crab legs,  oysters,  shrimp,  lobster,  mussels,  I want it alllll!!!  Luckily recently the crab legs have been on sale so I've had those a few times!  Ive also been craving street tacos like cray so I made some yummy ones the other day!  I've been eating tons of pickles,  including the pickle juice!  Gah!  Its just so good!  Help me!  I just recently started craving hot chocolate,  probably moresl sk from the glorious drop in temps we have had the past week,  so tonight at the grocery store I bought a a big tin of stephens milk chocolate and some pumpkin spice creamer and am currently sippin on that and its yuuum! Off topic, but I also bought a christmas tree candle!!!  Mmmm. 
     Pregnacy side effects: I have had very minimal back pain,  as opposed to londons pregnancy where I had chronic excruciating back pain for several months.  I'm grateful I havent really had too much of that!!  I have been getting tons of headaches and migraines.  With London I had those too but they seemed to go away about half way through of I remember right,  so I'm hoping the end is in sight because they are just miserable.  I haven't had any sickness.  I've been super lucky to not have any morning sickness with my pregnancies.  Knock on wood! Obviously I've been tired but not as much as I was with London. I remember coming home from work and going straight to bed every single day.  I was soooo tired all the time.  With this pregnancy its a different kind of tired,  if that makes any sense. 
     Names:  since we've been planning on not finding out the sex,  we have been talking about both boy and girl names.  Brock still really likes Ezra for a boy.  I'm not totally in love with it.  The main reason I like it is because he likes it so much.  I just dont feel like our boy is Ezra.  For a girl he has mentioned liking Poppy for a girl.  I nixed that one right away.  Sorry Brock! The boys name that I really love is Wesley.  That is Brock's great grandpas (if I'm remembering that right) name,  as well as his brother Kyles middle name.  I really love it and can totally picture a little Wesley in our family!  The girls name that I am currently liking is Evie.  And we both kinda like Addie,  possibly short for Addison or Adalain. And we have even briefly talked about Brock for a boy because we both really like that name :). Who knows what the name will end up being !
     Birth center/plan:  We are using the same birth center we used with London ,  they have an office in Orem and just opened one in Spanish Fork,  which are both equal distance from us (about 15 minutes). The midwives are all the same as the salt lake location I had London,  they just rotate through each center so thats nice seeing familiar faces!  We are doing the student program again this time. I'm not a huge fan of the actual buildings they are in,  they are very office building-y as opposed to the salt lake location which is this gorgeous old historic home.  I love that one so much so if we are still living in Provo come February,  I might try and fenagle having it there somehow!  I've only had 2 appointments so far but I look forward to them so much just to hear that little heart beat.  Its the only thing that makes this feel real!  Until my ultra sound that is! 
     Sadie is pregnant too!  She is only 5 weeks behind me so it will be so fun to be pregnant together and have them be so close in age!!
     So that's the pregnancy thus far!  I'll try and add some pics next time!  Break it up a bit! 

Friday, October 17, 2014

London's First Birthday!

I can't believe my little baby is ONE!!
Where has the time gone!
Sadly, I have only blogged a few times in that whole year! 
I have however, rededicated myself this this little space because I miss it, and I love going back through to read old posts!
Instagram has certainly changed the blogging world, that's for sure.

We had a sweet little party for London's birthday. 
Big, huge, over the top birthday parties are THE THING right now, 
especially in the blogging/creative world. 
I LOVE throwing/decorating a good party. It is a huge creative outlet for me, and I enjoy it immensely. 
Buuuuut, I didn't want to make this party a huge blowout for a few reasons.

First of all, if you do a huge party, how do you keep that up year after year? 
Especially when more kids start entering the mix and you are now throwing big birthday bashes multiple times a year!?
They also get expensive, and quick!

So I decided to keep things fairly simple and minimal, but still got to use my creative side for small things like decorations and dessert. Here are a few pictures of what I did, starting with the invitation.

To get my creative juices flowing, I decided to make letter cookies spelling her name for the dessert. 
This was SOOOOO much fun! I definitely want to make this a tradition for birthdays, and even other holidays! I am excited to decorate fun Christmas sugar cookies!
I did some research and watched a bunch of tutorials on cookie decorating and made a trip to
 Sur Le Table for some cookie cutters and gel food coloring (this is KEY!)

The process was a mess, but they turned out just how I imagined them!

The other thing that I did for the party was some decorations in the kitchen above the food table.
I just cut different shapes of paper and sewed them into a garland on my sewing machine. 
I also quickly designed a happy birthday poster with a chalkboard look and had 2 pictures of her printed in 18" x 24"  
 I thought it was a fun little touch to have a picture of her as a newborn and a current picture. 

 For her cake, I had a local bakery make a small smash cake.
White with black polka dots and a small pink heart.
I purchased a small gold "1" balloon and added some sweet pink ribbons to it for the cake topper.

She devoured that thing with a nice little sugar rush to follow!

She opened presents like a champ, pulling things out of bags, ripping paper off boxes, and dancing to the little music box that her nana gave her.  It was just the cutest thing ever!

She was surrounded by happiness and love and it was so fun to watch her experience her first birthday!
I can't wait to celebrate years of her sweet little life.

Friday, May 16, 2014

London's Hospital Stay (Jaundice)

We chose to do our birth at a birth center for many reasons, one of which was that I did not want to stay in a hospital. I really DO NOT like hospitals. I am not comfortable in hospitals. 
Regardless of my near perfect birth center birth, and my want/need to avoid the hospital we managed to end up in the hospital a few days later anyways. 
We were home from the birth center like 6 hours after I had London! It was so nice! But that was short lived because she started showing signs of jaundice. 
Here is how it all went down...

We got home Saturday around noon from having London. We had the siblings filter in there after for visits and to meet our new babe. We spent the day Saturday and everything was just great. I was feeling great, and we were just soaking up having our new baby finally here!
Sunday came and I noticed she looked a little yellow, but nothing too serious. That evening I asked Krissie (as well as the midwives at her 2 day check up on Monday) if she thought she looked a little yellow (I was second guessing my judgement because of all the hours I spent just staring at her =) maybe I was just making this up!) They all thought she looked a bit yellow as well so I watched her that night and the next day to see if it got any worse. 
It did. 
We kept her in the sun to see if that would help.

I was feeling like it was getting worse, but again was second guessing my judgement. I was having a hard time separating the thoughts of "im just a paranoid new mom" from "trust your instincts." It was a stressful day (monday) battling those two thoughts so on Tues I ended up calling her Dr. Who happened to be out of town at the time.
They told me that I could get into the on call Dr. on Wed but my gut was telling me not to wait so we started calling around to different insta cares and found that they do not do billi checks there.
We ended up at primary childrens emergency room. 
Definitely not the place I thought I would be spending the day with my 3 day old baby!
They started the standard procedures with her and checked her blood pressure, blood count and billi.

Her billi was high and she was also pretty dehydrated (from nursing struggles, that will be a post all in itself). 
So they let us know that we would be spending the night there. They said that her levels were at 16.7 and that they don't allow you to leave if it is over 14. 
Finally I felt justified in my feelings and bringing her to the ER. I was happy to feel that my instincts were right on and that she was in some need of medical care. It's hard when you have a brand new baby and trying to figure out what she needs and how to take care of her, but this just goes to show that we have mothers instinct from day one. 

She was a little trooper. Hardly even crying through all the pokes and prods and getting an IV. I think that is what kept me calm through all this, is that she didn't seem too distressed at all. 
Thank heavens. I can't imagine how it would have been sitting in there with my newborn baby screaming in pain or discomfort!

They moved us over to another unit and got her all hooked up to a a heart monitor and oxygen monitor and put her in a billi bed. 
It was so sad to see her all hooked up and her little eyes covered by the protective little glasses she had to wear.

And here is how we spent the night. Brock stayed on the floor and I got the awesome tiny pleather couch.

It was a rough night. I woke up to nurse her every 2 hours and each time would have to call in a nurse to come un hook her and hook her back up. In between that and the nurse coming in to check on her and the worry of having my baby in the hospital (and the cost we would face), there wasn't much sleeping going on on my end.
A little about the nursing sitch....The morning we were admitted into the hospital my milk had come in. By that night in the hospital, it was effected drastically. The stress reduced my supply dramatically which made for even more nursing struggles than I was already having up to that point. 
By the time the morning came I was pumping after each nursing session to try and get more milk and had more than one person/nurse offer up formula (which was devastating to me at the time). This made the situation even harder because I was NOT about to give my baby formula.
(more on that in a future post)
By 10 the next morning her billi had finally lowered to 13 with the help of the billi lights so they discharged us.
I left the hospital feeling uneasy, but relived to be heading home. While we were in the hospital the stress on London effected her bowl movements. She stopped pooing after feedings and didn't have one the whole time we were in the hospital. Up to then, they were regular and fine and she was getting all the meconium out of her system. With high billirubin it is important that she was pooping because that is how the system gets rid of it, so leaving knowing that she wasn't getting rid of it, just told me that the only reason why her levels were lowered was from the lights, which they did not send home with us. 
They sent us home with the instruction to get her into her Dr the next day to get her billi checked again.
We did as instructed and after we got home from the (oncall) Dr visit we got a call back with the results. Her billi had shot up to 20 and the Dr told me that when it reaches 24 they are admitted directly into the NICU so she wanted us to get back to the ER asap. She called primarys and rather than going through the ER again they told us to just go straight back into the unit that we had just been released from the morning before!
This is when the panic and frustration for me set in. Hearing the word NICU sent me into full fledged worry and panic. We rushed her back and went through round number 2 in the hospital. 
Night 2 went the same as night 1. They got her all hooked back up and we spent the night there.

 We were discharged again the next day because her billi had gone back down to 14 around noon and again, I left feeling uneasy because she was still not pooping. 
Again, we were instructed to see the Dr. the next day to have her billi checked again to make sure it hadn't gone back up.
Her results came back and her billi had gone back up but this time rather than admitting us, they sent home heath care to our house with a billi light which you can see glowing in the pic below.
She also started sleeping with her hands above her head which was freaking adorable!
This was hard because we had to keep her on the lights 24 hours a day for a few days except for feedings. 

After many many trips to the Dr, many pokes (i should have kept count, but during this time I'm sure she was poked well over 20 times, poor thing) and alot of stress later, her billi finally went down and stayed down. 

We spent some extra nakey time in the sun tho juuuuust in case =)

Here pooping never really normalized, she pooped just a couple times a week if i remember right for the first couple months. The Dr wasn't too concerned about that now that her billi was staying down and just said that some babies don't poop alot. When her poop finally did normalize, it was always fairly hard (like playdough consistancy) and still is.

I think this face sums up how we all felt by the end of this whole ordeal.

Poor baby was such a trooper!

Friday, December 27, 2013

The many faces of London

Friday, December 20, 2013

Londons Birth Story!

My Natural Hypnobabies Water Birth:

WARNING: This is probably the longest blog post I have ever written! I will be shocked if anyone actually reads the whole thing! But if you do make it to the end…enjoy!
Also, There are pictures of me right before and after she was born included, they don't show anything, just me in a sports bra, but if you think thats weird then you can stop reading if you so choose =)

It has been over two months since London was born and sadly it has taken me this long to sit down and write out her birth story. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to or thought about it on a very regular basis, the problem is I have had a major case of writers block. I hope this doesn't come along with being a mother, because blogging and journaling will never get done! The other problem is, when I sit and think about putting her birth story into words, there is no way to write and express in words how I feel about it and how it went. Not because I am drawing a blank, but just because it is impossible to convey the beauty, feelings and emotion behind the experience. That has led me to avoiding it all together. But I want to make certain that it is documented, 
so here is my bleak attempt to write it out.

My due date was October 1. There is room for debate on that date, and here is why. That number is based on my last cycle. When I had my one and only ultrasound at 20 weeks, he determined that it was about October 3rd, but kept it at the 1st since it was so close to the third. At one of my last few appointments one of the midwives said the 6th…I have no idea where that date came from, and finally, I wasn’t 40 weeks until the 4th so I guess technically that should have been the “due date”.  In the end the due date did nothing but drive us all crazy because all those days came and went. My mother in law flew in on Sept 29th thinking that for sure in the week and a half that she was here she wouldn’t miss the birth. She was here for conference weekend, and you better believe in between sessions I was walking, and playing at the playground with our niece and nephew and doing whatever I could (naturally) to get this baby here while she was here. Unfortunately that did not happen. London decided to come on Saturday October 12th. Exactly one week and one day past my due date (or at least one of them!). Interestingly enough, the average first time pregnancy for low risk mothers is also one week and one day! She came when she was good and ready.

looking at these pics is hilarious. i was HUGE!

Side Note:  For our birth we used hypnobabies. This birthing method uses different terminology for things like contractions (pressure waves), and labor (birthing time) and transition (transformation).  The purpose is to replace terms that generally have a negative denotation attached to them. I will be using this terminology. I will also mention things like using my “lightswitch” I may do a separate hyponobabies blog post to talk about what some of these things mean and the techniques that are used. Until then, some of what I say here may only make sense to people who are familiar with hypnobabies.

Here is how it all went down…..
On Thursday (the 10th) we went to bed with no sign of any change. I woke up at about 2:30 in the morning to use the bathroom and felt something I hadn’t felt before…..a pressure wave! Not just Braxton hicks, this felt different. So I knew right away that things were going to start happening! I started timing the pressure waves. They were about 13 minutes apart. After I had timed several pressure waves, I decided to go out into the living room and refresh my memory of what will be happening from here on out with some reading from my hypnobabies books and also write in my journal. I wanted brock to be able to have a good nights sleep so I didn’t want to wake him up just yet.

Here is what I wrote in my journal:

“Well I think today might be the day! I’ve been up since about 2:30am (didn’t check the clock till about 2:50am) with what I believe are pressure waves! (just had one as I wrote that!). I’m not sure if I lost my mucous plug when I went to the bathroom at 2:30. I felt a tiny something that may have been it, but it was barely noticeable, I was half asleep and the light was off. I started checking the time at 2:50am, and my pressure waves were 13 minutes apart. I think now they are about 10-11 minutes apart. Brock should be up soon (his alarm goes off at 6am), so I’ll break the news to him then! J I wanted him to be able to get as much sleep as possible. At about 3:30 there was a little bit of pink mucous stuff in the toilet so that’s a good sign! Other than that, I just have crazy pressure in my lower back with my pressure waves. I’ve tried turning my light switch off during them, but have found that they are soooo much more bearable if I flexed my butt! (weird, I know!) Not sure if that is normal, but it helps! I know I’ve still got a while to go though cause we don’t have to call the birth center until pressure waves are 5 min apart, each lasting more than 1 min and I can’t walk or talk through them, for at least an hour. It’s funny cause I think Brock got the nesting urge last night. I wonder if subconsciously he knew that the baby was going to come cause he cleaned up dinner, cleaned up the kitchen, did some laundry, hung up the last shelf in the nursery and was just getting lots done around the house! I’m glad it’s all done too cause we won’t have to worry about doing any of that today or when we come home with a baby!”

Shortly after I wrote this, I went in and woke brock up (he thought he had slept through his alarm). I told him “I think you might need to call in sick today, I’ve been having pressure waves for the last 4 hours..” He then replied, “are you serious? How far apart are they!?” I told him 10 minutes and his response seemed surprised that this was serious enough to even be timing them and that I knew they were 10 min apart! So he got out of bed and our (Fri)day began!

40 weeks 1 day

 We pretty much just hung out all day and my pressure waves were consistently 10 minutes apart. Brock had a previously scheduled lunch with a couple of his buddies to talk business at noon, so I told him you should still go. Nothing is changing here, and there isn’t much you can do so go ahead and go. Plus he was going to café rio and I really wanted him to bring me some  ;). He said are you sure?! Yep! So he went for a couple hours and while he was gone I worked through my pressure waves and was actually able to sleep in between them thanks to my use of hypnobabies! That was nice, since I didn’t get a full nights sleep, and I wanted to feel rested when I actually went into my birthing time. Brock got home, and I had some yummy café rio. My sister showed up to pick up her coat, and was surprised to see brock home. We had planned not to call and tell anyone when I went into labor because we didn’t want a bunch of people calling/texting the whole time wanting updates and to see how we were doing. We just wanted to be able to focus on the task at hand….having a baby! And not have to worry about updating everyone. This was especially important to use in the birthing choice we made with hypnobabies because it is all about concentration and relaxation. But when molly showed up we let her know what was going on. She ended up staying and hanging out with us for a few hours. At about 7 pm we all decided to take a walk to see if we could get things moving along. Brock and I played a game of monopoly and then decided to go lay down in bed and try and get some rest since there hadn't been any real changes. Im not sure what time that was, because I had no sense of time whatsoever. Time went by so fast throughout my whole labor. It was probably about 7:30 or 8 pm (we are still in Friday). Brock read, and I just laid in bed and was able again to sleep in between my pressure waves. Brock was so good at making sure I was drinking water after each pressure wave and changing positions every 2 hours. So at about 10pm I changed positions. I started getting really uncomfortable and the change in position helped a lot. At this point I had Brock start timing my pressure waves again. There was one that was about 8 min then the rest were about 5 with one that was like 3 and one that was 4, so things had changed quite a bit in the time that we got in bed. One funny/interesting observation I had was that throughout the day I was also peeing like crazy. I went through a whole roll of tp! I guess that was from the combination of drinking a lot and the baby moving down and putting more pressure on my bladder. I just remember thinking how crazy it was how much I was using the bathroom lol! 

40 weeks

We stayed in bed, Brock fell asleep at 11:45pm for a couple hours and I started getting increasingly uncomfortable so I tried a few positions on the birth ball but sitting was very uncomfortable so I started walking around the house. I literally just started doing laps around the kitchen and that helped tremendously. I just walked through my pressure waves. About 1:30am I had to use the bathroom (again!) and I started feeling pushy, which had me a little lot concerned! As I was on the toilet, my body kinda just took over and pushed…..and my water broke! I know what you’re thinking….oh, perfect place to have your water break, right? Nope, it actually went all over the floor since I was pushing right when it broke so it was more of a burst! I called into Brock and he came in to help. I jumped into the shower and my sweet husband cleaned up the mess I just made on the floor J The warm water felt SOOOO good, I didn’t want to get out! Brock said what are you doing! And I just told him it just feels so good! So I finally got out of the shower and got dressed and we called the midwife. If you recall from earlier I mentioned that they have you call when your pressure waves are 5 min apart, each lasting more than 1 min and you can’t walk or talk through them, for at least an hour (I was still walking and talking through mine!)…..OR your water has broke.  

A couple things of note: At our birth center they are on call at night so they are not at the birth center. They will send you home if you are not dilated to at least 5cm. The birth center was about 23 min away. Also, we paid for the student program (cause it was a little cheaper) which means that a student midwife does all my checkups with the head midwife there supervising as well as the birth.

        So when I called in, I called into the student midwife and told her everything that had happened up to that point and she said ok, I’ll call the midwife and see if she wants to have you come in. My thought was I hope they tell me to come in cause I’m feeling ready, but I didn’t really know how far along I was, just that my water had broke and my pressure waves were 5 min and less apart. So while we were waiting for their call back, brock started packing up the car while I worked through some more pressure waves. I told brock, let’s just start heading that way so we are close to the birth center if they tell us to come in. I just wanted to get close cause I felt like I was getting closer to having this baby! So just as we walked out the door I had a couple of strong pressure waves that were preventing us from getting in the car. We had at least made it outside though and it was quite chilly out but it felt so good to this birthing mama! Meanwhile, the midwife called back and asked me a bunch of questions. The whole time I was on the phone with them I was having to make them hold on while I worked through some pressure waves every few minutes so they were getting closer and closer together. During one of my pressure waves I heard the midwife say to the student midwife, “maybe have her get in a warm bath for a little while” and that freaked me out a little bit because I felt like I needed to be leaving right away and I wanted them to say come in but I still didn’t know how far off I was and I hadn’t ever been through this so in my mind I don’t know if I would have said no I think I need to come in now and would have just waited until they told me to come in. After that pressure wave they told me that they wanted me to do a squat test, to make sure my water had really broken. To me, this was laughable for two reasons. One, I was SURE my water had broke…and two, I wasn’t about to squat. I felt that was near impossible in the condition I was in. I gave them a little guff saying “why do I need to do this, I know my water broke…I had a huge gush of water, and I’m not about to squat”. They said they needed to make sure what was coming out so they told me to put a towel on the floor and put a white paper towel over that so I could tell them the color of what was coming out. So I did what the midwife ordered and to my surprise I was able to squat just fine. She told me to bare down and tell her the color of what was coming out. Brock let them know that it was a pinkish color with some white-ish stuff in it and they said ok ya come in now! This was about 2:40 in the morning, about an hour after my water had broke. They told me that it would take them about an hour to get there and to meet them there at 3:40, but then she changed her mind and said meet us there at 3:20. So I went into the living room and waited for a couple minutes and had a couple of pressure waves and asked brock to give me a blessing and then we left. I was DREADING getting in the car because I was so much more uncomfortable sitting at this point during my pressure waves but just as we left, my pressure waves actually eased up a bit during the car ride thank goodness! I was starting to get a little bit nervous that I might have this baby in the car so after the vision of that flashed through my mind, I said a quick prayer that that would not happen! The roads were barren of course at this time of the morning, so you would think that with a laboring passenger Brock would have stepped on the gas a little, but no….my staunch husband who rarely drives over 75 was sure to keep the speed limit J. Little stinker. In fact there was a red light that we hit once we got off the freeway and I wanted to tell him to go through the freakin light, but then a car came so I didn’t.

              We made it to the birth center right about 3:25am. First thing, they wanted to check the baby’s heart rate and wanted to check me to see how far along I was. At this point I was having two pressure waves back to back, and then I would have a break of a few minutes so my midwife wanted to wait until that break to check me. The way it works on the student program that we were on, the midwife checks you first and then has the student midwife check you. When the midwife checked me she had a hard time finding my cervix (because unbeknownst to us it was fully effaced and dilated!) so when the student midwife checked she also had a hard time. At this time (right in the middle of the exam) I started having very vocal (my vocal was a deep grunting type of noise) pushing contractions so she immediately ended the exam and told me that I was fully dilated and ready to go! At this point they asked me if I wanted to have a water birth (I was still undecided about that until I got in the shower at home and felt how relieving and nice it was) and I told them yes and they started the bath. I had a whole birth plan written out that I had done weeks earlier with the expectation that I would have time to give it to them but that didn’t happen because things started happening so quickly once we got to the birth center! The birthing suite was upstairs, and at that point I had to get up there somehow. This seemed, at the time, to be an impossible task. I told them, I don’t think I can get up there. Looking back, I think this is when I hit transformation. Just as I made my way up the stairs my contractions eased up again and I had no issues getting up the stairs with Brocks help. I waited for the bath to fill the rest of the way and got right in. It was SO nice. I will definitely be having water births from here on out. It is so calming and helps so much with the pressure you are feeling in your lower body! Brock text my doula and our photographer saying “ Leave now! Not sure if you will make it!”

           And the pushing began!
          I stared having pushing pressure waves and they were intense! My body completely took over and just started bearing down and pushing! I was breathing very deeply and somewhat vocal. When you hear people talk about their natural births they frequently use the term primal in describing the noises they make during labor. My way of vocalizing was a sort of deep grunting sound I guess. My first position in the bath was a sitting position. I was in this position for a couple of minutes and then they had me change positions to hands and knees. This position was not allowing me to open and relax and I was doing the very opposite, and squeezing and tightening everything up while pushing. After a couple minutes of this, they could see that I was not opening everything up, my hips and legs and everything, I was just clenching up, so they had me change positions once more, this time to a semi sitting position. I’m not really sure how to explain that one.

my midwife giving some counter pressure on my back

          The midwives were just encouraging me and telling me that I was doing great. I was totally in the zone! I had no idea what was going on around me. Another midwife showed up as well as my doula and I had no idea until my doula came right up next to my head and started giving me hypno ques.  Brock had pulled out our hypnobabies “pushing baby out” soundtrack and had that playing and was askin g me what I needed and giving me water and helping me wher ehe could.  I was just so intently focused on what I was doing. ! I was letting my pressure waves do all of the work and my midwife told me that I needed to push through the pressure wave. I finally figured out what that meant, and my pushing became much more effective. Then came the ring of fire…she was crowning! I have read countless birth stories, and I always heard that term ring of fire and wondered what that would be like and it was just that, a ring of fire. It was like a stretching burning feeling. It was at that point that I actually thought I was feeling pain (for the first time through all my birthing time!). I remember saying oww a few times during those few seconds but looking back, I don’t think I was actually feeling pain, just that immense burning feeling and had to vocalize the discomfort somehow! The midwife said I see a lot of hair!! Which was a total shock to me. I thought for sure we would have a baldy come out!. Once her head was out the midwife went in and shimmied her shoulders out and after a total of 7 minutesof pushing, our baby was here! The midwife pulled her out of the water and immediately put her on my chest. It took us a few seconds to realize we still didn’t know if we had a boy or a girl so I took a quick peek. IT’S A GIRL!!!  I felt an immense sense of accomplishment and said “I did it!” Brock was right there to give me a kiss and look at our beautiful little baby girl!  I just kept saying is she ok? Is she ok?

           When babies are born in the water, generally they don’t cry right away because the transition from mother to water to being outside it much less traumatic on the baby then coming straight from the mother to the outside so she didn’t immediately cry. She did have a little trouble getting going though. She was pretty purple when she came out, which is normal to an extent, but she had a lot of mucus in her mouth and nose so the midwife wanted to start working on her to get her breathing better. I sat in the bath for a few minutes (I’m not really sure how long it was), but they wanted me to get to the bed so they could get to her better. They gave me a homeopathic to help the placenta pass and as I started to get out of the tub, It came right out. I didn’t even have to push it out and didn’t feel any contractions. We wanted to make sure the cord had stopped pulsing before it was cut so once that happened brock cut the cord and I made my way out of the bath and onto the bed.

cutting the cord

          The next 45 or so minutes were spent clearing out her nose and mouth and getting her breathing under control. She had to have some oxygen given to her and that helped and she started to pink up and breath better. Most of this was done with her on my chest but some of it was done on the bed. This certainly wasn’t ideal, but the midwives were so great and I never felt worried and was completely confident in their care. I did have a couple small tears so at this point they got me stitched up. I remember the midwife apologizing that they had to do that, because of the pain I guess? But I just chuckled thinking, I just had a baby with no drugs! What do you think is going to be so bad that I can’t handle after what I just did!

Once she became more stable, I was able to try nursing her. They gave us about an hour to ourselves to just take in our new little baby, and then they came in and did her wellness check. She was a perfect little baby! She weighed 8 LBS 6 OZ and was 21” long! She had a full head of crazy hair! We were shocked that it wasn’t red, but more the color of Brocks hair!

Things happened and progressed so quickly that my photographer didn’t make it to the birth so we only got a few (blurry pics) but to tell you the truth, I am ok with that because I’m not so sure that I would have liked to see me in them! I wasn’t one of those beautiful beaming bright birthing mothers. I had makeup all up under my eyes, I was a hot mess so I am ok with what we got!
We stayed at the birth center for about three hours after she was stable, sent out all the announcement texts, called brocks mom and told her how it all went, and then headed home with our new little bundle of joy!!

My feelings on how my natural un medicated birth went:
          It was perfect. I’m not sure I could have asked for a better experience. My hypno tools helped me tremendously and although I did experience immense pressure and discomfort, I was never really in pain. I am walking proof that a painless birth is possible and that my friends is amazing! I was in active labor for just over 7 hours and pushed for a mere 7 minutes! Brock was so amazing, supportive, helpful and encouraging! I wanted to (and still do) shout it from the rooftops that having a baby can be an enjoyable experience. That you don’t have to be scared and in pain and screaming and need drugs to get you through it. I feel like I can do anything after that experience. I have joined a very small percent of women who birthed their babies naturally with out any medical interventions. I did it. No one else. ME! It was a beautiful experience and I can’t wait for the next one!! J

And withour further adieu……

If you made it this far...thanks for reading my novel of a post!! 
  • Friday, September 27, 2013

pregnancy update

well i am 39 weeks today!
one week left and i can't believe it. its still not real!

i have been off work for a week now. 
that is an adjustment all in itself. 
it has been really weird being off work, having brock leave each morning and having the day to fill with preparations for the baby. 
its got me in some sort of funk, but by the time baby comes i should feel more directed as my time will be filled with taking care of another person!

its just another transition in this big life changing even that is about to take place! 

I have been able to get some things done this week though so its been nice and pretty productive. 
i was able to make some of the essential oil blends that i will be using for the birth
i got some post partum stuff done (trying to prepare to take care of down there. uh um)
i think ill post a bunch of that stuff sometime so i can remember what i did and used for the next babies!
i got a couple last minute things ordered, the diaper pail and diaper sprayer. and some more diaper liners for the cloth diapers. 
i have gotten to sleep in a little and try to catch up on the sleep i dont get at night. slowly but surely. 
ill need all the sleep i can get with whats about to take place!

i was able to go shopping for all the ingredients i need to make some freezer meals. 
one down and a few left to go. 
thats what i will do today.

i was able to have a little pamper day this week. i got an hour prenatal massage that was so relaxing, and got my toes done. ill tell you what, im looking forward to being able to paint my own toes again! that and sleeping on my stomach again! CANT WAIT! my left hip is constantly killing me from sleeping on my left side all the time!

tomorrow i have another small shower and my MIL flies in. 
hopefully this little babe decides to get here while she is here! 

there are little random things i want to do like disinfect all the handles, door handles, blind pull thingys, cupboard handles, you know, the things we touch everyday! i have been wanting to do that since we moved into our place and sadly have not so thats going on the list of to do's for tomorrow.
plus brock has been sick the last few days so i need to get that place disinfected!

as far as the pregnancy goes, i found out a few weeks ago that my strep b test came back negative which i was soooooo thrilled about. 
but then at my next appointment they informed me that i was strep G positive!
what the?!
no one even knows what that is. its super super rare and of course i have it!
i was and still am pretty bummed about it because i will have to have an antibiotic administered during the birth witch means i will have to have a saline lock. im not too thrilled about that but it is what it is. 
my protein was a little low at my last appointment so i need to eat more meat and eggs i guess. 
other than that everything looks good. 
i measured at 40 weeks at my last 2 appointments so who knows when this babe will come!

sadly i dont have any new pics to add here so this will be a boring pictureless post, but i am determined to get more this week since this might be my last few days being pregnant! sad!!
off to get my protein!

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

baby shower #1

last weekend I had my family shower. 
SADLY the second i got there my camera died =(

so i had to steal  borrow sadie's phone and only got a couple pics of me and my sisters.

krissie, kirsti, big prego lady, amber

molly, big prego lady, court, sadie

courtney did such a great job with the shower i'm sad i didn't get any pics of her cute decorations and yummy food! and the other guests!

later that day brock and i went shopping for the remainder of the things we need for this little babe.
buying things for a newborn can be so overwhelming! who would have thought!

im excited about the things we got though and the deals we got! 
we used kid to kid for a couple things and ksl and target of course! 
the rest (except diapers and a few other odds and ends that i still have to get) i ordered online so we will be getting packages in the mail for the next few days!
love that! its always fun coming home to a box sitting on the front porch. even though i know what it is, its like christmas!

brock emailed me the other day and was so cute. he said 
"i just ordered a few things for the baby that were not necessity but im excited about them!"
ha i cant wait to see what they are!

i will be 37 weeks on friday and have what seems to be a  never ending list of things to do.
most of them are things we should have done by the 37th week so the rest of this week is going to be busy!
we need to get the car seat in and take it in to have it checked for proper installation.
we need to get our birth bags packed
i need to finalize my birth plan for my midwives and my doula
still need to find a pediatrician!
thank you cards
and that is all while doing normal life things like achievement days today, doula appt and midewife appt tomorrow and the fair on friday! it will be a miracle if i get it all done!

and thats just this week. i have a whole other list of stuff to get done the week before the baby comes while i am off work (9 days and counting till my last day!)

that week will be fun stuff though. making last minute things like swaddling blankets, diaper bag, wipes, curtains for the nursery, get my oil  blends done that i plan on using for the birth, and i want to take a day to deep clean the house and make some freezer meals for our little fam for the first week or two. 
nesting much? 

oh and i have a gift card for a mani/pedi brock gave me for mothers day that i have been saving for that week and a gift card that my SIL gave me for my bday for a prenatal massage that i have been saving too!
pamper day!
 gotta get those scheduled!

then there are the things that i hope to get to but time is just not on my side, like watching happiest baby on the block again, reading Ina May's guide to childbirth, making a calming playlist for the birth/delivery,  
da da da. 

lots of stuff! 
its getting closer and closer and doesn't seem any more real!

I got all the baby clothes/towels/washcloths/blankets washed and they are all sitting out ready to be put away. even those tiny little things hanging around still doesn't make it seem real and i am still unable to comprehend what is about to happen lol. a baby!

Thursday, September 5, 2013

T-26 days!

35 weeks

Time is quickly dwindling before this baby will be here and I am a mixed bag of emotions. 
I am looking forward to meeting our little baby, but don't feel quite prepared!

I'm not ready to give up being pregnant quite yet!
(except all night while I toss and turn trying to get comfortable)
I feel like being pregnant is a part of me now and I am going to miss it.
 I have absolutely loved being pregnant.
Good thing this is our first and I have more pregnancies to come!

There is so much to do, and only 26 ish days to do it in! 
Luckily I leave work a week before the baby comes so hopefully I can fit it all in then. 
I have what seems to be an endless list of things to do to prepare for this little human. 

I am still trying to comprehend the fact that one day soon, we will be pulling into our driveway and entering our home with a new little person that will be an integral part of our family forever. 
That tiny little squeaks and tiny little socks and tiny little toys and little tiny toes and  will fill our home. 
That our thoughts will immediately turn from ourselves and be focused on our child. 
What a bazaar thing to try and wrap my head around!
Things are about to get real!

baby update and maternity pics!

I think I mentioned on here that I chose a photographer and her prices were so great that we did a package deal that included maternity, the birth and the newborns.
I was hesitant about getting the maternity ones done, just cause who wants to look at pics of themselves when they feel so large?
But I decided to do it because I knew I'd love to look back at them even though right now I feel large! Plus her prices were just so good that it was basically free for the maternity shoot!
Anyways here is a little pregnancy update with some of the pics scattered throughout.
She did such an AWESOME job that it was hard for me to even narrow it down! This coming from the big prego lady that doesn't like to look at pics of herself right now!
That's how good she is!

These were taken at 31 weeks

Today I am 34 weeks.
I am feeling great, for the most part.
The biggest pain is still my back, but if I take it easy, its manageable. I've discovered that my birth ball
 (yoga ball) helps a TON. It relieves a lot of the pressure on my back. I love it!
Sadie got married on Wednesday and I was on my feet all day. By the end of the day I could barely move. Bed time came and I didn't think I would sleep a wink. I didn't get the best of sleep but before I went to bed I did some stretches on my birth ball and it loosened up my back tremendously!

There were a few things that I wanted to avoid with this pregnancy, mostly all unavoidable.

I want to be able to wear my wedding rings for as long as possible and they are luckily still on! My only swelling has been in my feet and ankles.
I hope it stays that way! But in this heat with 6 weeks to go, I'm not counting on it.

Stretch Marks........
In the beginning of my pregnancy I wasn't worried about weather or not I got them. But now that I have made it this far without stretch marks on my belly I REALLY just don't want them!
Same with that dark line that runs down the middle of your belly. I'm sure it will come, but I'm loving my smooth, freckled, stretch mark free round belly while I have it!
I have however acquired some lovely love handles with this pregnancy and they have sprouted a few stretch marks.
Can't win em all I guess

Belly Button......
my belly button hasn't popped yet and I am certainly ok with that!
I'm hoping it doesn't lol. 
Again, I'm not counting on it, especially since I am in the last stretch of this pregnancy and our baby could be gaining up to a half a pound a week! 
It's definitely getting close though! 

In my opinion (if you ask my sisters they would disagree), but based on the way I have felt, I feel like my emotions have been pretty well in tact. I don't feel like I had any real melt downs in my pregnancy when they tell you your hormones will do crazy things to you.....
But then at about 30 weeks, that's when the emotions came. Out of no where.
There still haven't been too many break downs, but there have definitely been a few!

 As far as the nursery goes......
We  I haven't done too much accept let a bunch of junk accumulate there!
This weekend I am going to work on clearing it all out so that we can get it painted and organized.
I ordered crib sheets which should be on our door step when we get home and got the fabric in the mail for pillows I am going to make. 
I got a rocker off KSL that we need to paint and then it's the fun decorating stuff!
Making curtains and hanging stuff on the walls!

 I can't believe that we are in the home stretch. 
Really, it's not real yet! I wonder if it will ever feel real!
I'll probably have a baby sitting in my lap and still feel like its not real.
Other people have kids. That's real. But having our own, is just so hard to comprehend!
A little growing thriving person with it's own little personality will soon be in our lives forever.

I still have 6 weeks to go (maybe more!) but I am already recognizing the feelings I am going to have when I am not pregnant anymore. I love being pregnant and although I am looking forward to the next phase and what all this work is for, I am going to miss being pregnant. I feel like its a part of me now! It's an awesome feeling and I love being the one that gets to feel the baby move and wiggle inside me. 
Stretch marks, swelling and belly button popping aside! 

The only thing I am NOT going to miss is people feeling they have the right to comment on my size!
You are crazy for thinking it's ok to tell a crazy hormonal pregnant lady: "WOW! You are big" after I tell them when I am due.
Or "You look ready!" when I still have a month and a half to go!
Or my favorite: "Are you having twins?!"
Or the lady at Michaels who decided to chat me up about my pregnancy and after telling me how big I am proceeded to tell me about 2 women that she knew that you couldn't tell they were pregnant until about two weeks before they were due! Awesome story lady. NOT!

I am so excited to see Brock as a dad. Honestly I think it is going to be one of the best dads around. He already is! And he is so good at easing my natural nervous emotions about becoming parents. 
He always has the right things to say and his calming attitude is so helpful.
He has been so supportive with our choice to use hypnobabies, and has become a HUGE part of how our labor and delivery will go. With our choice to have a natural birth, It's really comforting to me, knowing that although I am the only one that can get this baby out of me, he is going to be right there by my side supporting me through every second of it.
I am really excited to see him take that role when the time comes. He has already been so amazing. 

The time is getting closer and closer. I compare the time we have left to things like next time we have to get our oil changed, we will have a baby! And that makes it sound sooooo soon! 
I only have 20 days of work left! Well I guess I should say 20 days left at my job, since the real work is going to begin when I get to start taking care of a baby!
I am so blessed and grateful that I can stay at home with our babies.

Check out our photographers site if you are interested. She dose awesome work!

Friday, June 28, 2013

baby bump: 26 weeks and updates

my belly is growin by the day.
it's weird cause I don't feel like its too much bigger, but I went and put on a shirt that I have been wearing regularly and it was too short for the bump. so it's definitely getting bigger I guess I'm not noticing as much cause i see it everyday!

26 weeks
I bought my first couple of maternity shirts this week!
H&M was my best friend the other day. They had a couple cute maternity shirts and some normal tee's that are stretchy and still fit over the bump for 6 bucks and I am IN LOVE with them cause they stretch, they are thin which is a must in this heat and I don't have to wear an undershirt under them, another must for this heat. the less layers the better!
I have been buying normal clothes (shirts and maxis) just in a larger size up until now, but I don't think I am going to be able to get away with that for more than a few weeks more at least for the shirts. My belly is just growin too quickly! But that's ok cause it just means my baby is growin healthy and strong!!
The baby has been moving more and more and I LOVE IT!
I wish it would move all day long!
It is one of THE most comforting feelings to feel that little thing in there kicking away.
I'm really going to miss being pregnant once this babe comes!

BTW for those of you who don't know, we aren't finding out the sex of the baby hence why we call it "it" or "the baby" because it is nameless not because its just an "it" to us =)

We have made great progress in the shopping and decision making process.
We bought our carseat and stroller.

 as far as i can tell, I think I am going to love them!

Brock was so cute and set up the car seat in the car right away. 
He wanted to figure out what side would be best and we got a mirror that he wanted to try out.
I on the other hand, was not as excited. Only because it ALLLL got real when we got the car seat!
Don't ask me why!
Brock said "it didn't become real to you with a growing belly, or a crib or any of that?!"
and for some reason, no! It didn't!
It was the car seat!
I am more excited now,
 I just went through a couple days of freak out that we are going to have  a tiny little human in that car seat!
It still doesn't seem real but i'm less freaked! =)

I picked a photographer and decided that I am just going to do it all,
the birth story, the maternity shoot and the newborn shoot.
I was hesitant about the birth story and had no interest in doing a maternity shoot, but her prices are realllly great so I couldn't pass them up. We will see how it goes!
Here is her site if anyone is interested:
HarlowMoon Photography

I think that about sums up the last couple weeks of baby-ness
I had an appt with my midwife yesterday and everything is looking good!
I am a week behind what I thought I was, 26 weeks and not 27
The gestational diabetes test came back clean and clear
My next appointment will be my last every 4 weeks and then I will start going in every 2! 
Can't wait!

And just for fun more pics, and my new trick =)

this belly serves as more than just a safe home for my growing babe:

getting more and more excited for this little one to be here!!




Thursday, June 6, 2013

baby bump

I am not one to take a weekly baby bump pic like some mamas out there.
there is nothing wrong with those that do, in fact its probably fun for them to have those pics later on to look back on their growing belly.
but most of the baby bump pics you see out there are of little tiny skinny fit prego ladies that look perfect and that's just not me.
so the weekly bump update just wasn't going to happen.
and still isn't.
however, I do want to be able to look back on my growing belly, so I sent brock the following email
to help me remember I want pics!

it could take about 30 tries before I get a pic I can stand of myself (im working on that ok!)
and ill probably end up hating them all, but at least ill have them.

so im going to try to be better about taking pics, and being in pics.
so anyways here are a couple of my growing belly 

23 1/2 weeks






Wednesday, June 5, 2013

baby projects

we have been in baby mode for a little while  the last 23 weeks =)
there are a few projects in the works for our budget friendly nursery.
#1. the crib.
a friend from our last ward knew someone that was getting rid of one and wondered if we wanted it.
I was a little hesitant not knowing what it looked like and having a very specific view in mind of what I wanted, but it was free so I said sure why not.
it turned out to be a really great crib. its not exactly what I would have picked out originally but im loving it more and more. it was originally a blonde finish so we are painting it white.
brock spent one evening sanding it so my dad could paint it while I read & played with the chickens.

#2 project is the dresser.
I knew exactly what I wanted and have been scouring KSL and the mid-century mod look doesn't come cheap. unless you are lucky. and go to yard sales! which I do.
so we found a perfect dresser for a whopping $15 bucks! awww yeah
this will also be the changing table and its long enough to work for both.
we are refinishing it to its original wood, It is currently painted white and there are at least 3 layers of paint. sanding was out of the question so brock found the easiest way to go about this and came up with the heat gun, which added $20 bucks to our dresser price but still a $35 dresser....I'll take it. Especially when the same dressers are running at at least $100-300 on KSL. 

I didn't get a pic until we only had two drawers left but here is a pic of the two before
and the rest after.
the heat gun worked like a charm.
it was so nice just peeling the paint right off. sorta like when you would put glue on your hand in elementary and then peel it off!! yummy!

 so we have the two biggest nursery projects in the works! aside from painting the room white. 

upcoming projects will be:
finding fabric for the crib sheets and changing pad
making said sheets and pad
finding a chair brock & i can agree on. he wants a recliner. i do not.

oh and at the same yard sale i found the dresser, i also found this globe (for the nursery), which I have been wanting one forever, and the guy sold it to me for a whole dollar!!!!
i looked online for the same one and the cheapest i could find was $40 bucks!
thats the kinda stuff that makes this thrifter a happy camper. 

Friday, May 24, 2013


baby kicks  

so lately I have been having brock feel my stomach when the baby is kicking.
I want him to get a small glimpse of the immense joy I feel every time I feel it moving in there but he can't feel the baby kicking yet.
until last night in bed when he decided to put his head on my belly to see what he could hear.
the baby decided to kick him right in the head and he sure felt it!!
it was sooooo funny!
I immediately thought that there was a little baby boy in there already trying to rough house with his dad from the womb lol
we'll see!
btw feeling the baby move is by far the best feeling I have ever felt. I can't wait till it is moving more and more.
the feeling is indescribable. I love every second of it.
except when it kicks me in the bladder that's not so fun =)





Life Lately

Things are moving right along in life =)
Brock and I are keeping busy with little things like work parties and temple going and nursery planning. And already we are half way through this pregnancy! I can't believe it!

Our Weekend happenings:
20 Weeks
We headed to the Bountiful sidewalk chalk festival over the weekend. I discovered a little antique shop and had a keva. yum. My sisters joined us for the chalk gawk. (did i just make that up lol)
Brock had a work party at boondocks on Saturday. We went and played arcades and had free lunch. I really wanted to do the batting cages but it was raining all day =( maybe that was for the better as lunging balls right at this prego lady might not have been the best idea =)
I took a glorious 3 our nap and we capped our Saturday off with a trip to the temple.

Pregnancy wise:
I am feeling great exept my back. I have constant back pain and when I am on it too much its debilitaing. That is my only complaint. The headaches have gone back to normal which is maybe a couple a week. Which is much better than the daily headaches and migraines I was getting a month and a half ago. I am so glad that phase didnt last long.
Besides the back pain and that jaunt of headaches, this pregnancy has been amazing. No sickness and nothing else to complain about! Not what I expected but I'll take it!
Who knows whats ahead cause im only half way there.
I did start having some ankle and feet swelling last week which I thought was a little early. But what do I know, iv'e never been through this before!
I have been using Doterra's AromaTouch oil and I can see my ankles again! Hopefully that will help me prevent too much swelling. I am also trying to drink more and all the other things they say to do for swelling.
We are slowly starting on the nursery. We cleared the room out and are ready to start painting and putting in furniture (which has yet to be purchased). We are painting a crib that was given to us so that is this weeks project.
Brock is ready to start buying things like strollers and car seats and all that jazz.
And this here shop-a-holic is dreading it! It's the craziest thing.
I freeze up and get stressed at the thought of making those purchases.
Here is why,
There are SOOOO many options and so much to consider when buying all that it is totally overwhelming to me.
I hear staticstics that most people have their child in an unsafe seat and not the right seat for their size/age and they don't even know it and then there are all the plastics and things I hear like they are all sprayed with flame retardants that contain formaldahyde.
Its too much!
Then there is the money part of it. We are spending a ton of money on things that I have never used before. How do I know which features I will like and will help with convenience and which I wont!?
I won't till I fork over the money for it then I'm stuck with what I have!

Ok im done ranting. Clearly I am overthinking every aspect of this. It's just stressfull!

Here is a little reminder of why we go through all this!
And why it is all worth it! =)

Oh and my youngest sister got engaged!


we had our first (and more than likely last) ultra sound on Monday
it was so fun to see the little thing in there just hangin out growing away.
it was also nice to see that things are forming and growing properly
we didn't find out the gender and won't till it comes!
crazy i know =)
we only got a few pics and they all seemed to be the same but here is one of them.
i also have a little video so maybe ill add that later (i don't have it with me now)

thats our little baby!
its so crazy.
i know that women go through pregnancy and have babies every day but its just so new to me that i feel like its unreal and that im the only one experiencing this lol
it's hard to explain but it just seems so weird that right now millions of women are experiencing the exact same thing i am.
anyways, after the u/s we had a mini photoshoot in front of the birth center.
i wanted to get some of my growing belly but didnt get any good ones.
i'll try again soon =)
i got a new camera so that will help me be better about taking photos

the baby decided to start moving around like CRAZY that night and now i KNOW what i am feeling in there! it's so fun!

i'll be 20 weeks this friday....which means HALF WAY THERE!!

whoa. its kinda freaky that in 5 months we will have a little human to take care of. OUR little human!
holy crap


Tuesday, May 7, 2013

How I told brock we are pregnant

This is how I announced to Brock that we were pregnant
I found out the day before (blog post here)
and too the next day off to come up with a way to tell him.
that, and I was way to excited to sit at a desk for 8 hours
Here are some more pics and the video

Friday, April 5, 2013

Heart Beat

i had an appointment with my midwife yesterday.
THE appointment.
the one where we get to hear the heart beat.
i have been anxiously awaiting this appointment because something paranoia had me convinced that i was no longer pregnant.
so much so that i had already invisioned the text/blogpost/calls that i would have to make saying that we had lost the baby.
so much so that as much as i wanted to have that moment of hearing the heart beat on camera, i couldn't bear to have on camera us finding out that we had lost the baby. so i didn't bring the camera.
so much so that i had already invisioned calling in sick the next day because how could i possibly go to go into work the next day like everything was normal,
when in reality i had just lost a part of me, a part of us. our baby.
this was a real fear that i did not want to be my reality, but i knew that i had no control over it.
so we made it to our appointment, brock got off a couple hours early so he could make it with me, which i was/am very grateful for. again, becuase i was so scared that i wouldn't hear the heart beat and the thought of being there all alone when that happened was unbearable.
sadly, these were my very real thoughts.
but i am so relieved and ecstaticly happy to say that we heard that little heart beat beatin away!
it was music to my ears.
i didn't realize the severity of what that little sound would do to me.
immediately i felt an immense bond with the little life that is growing inside me.
immediately this all became REAL.
immediatley amisdt tears, i was so releaved that our baby was in there moving and thriving.
immediately i felt gratitude to my Heavenly Father who has made this miracle happen and
has given us this amazing opportunity.
that little swooshing heartbeat brought on a flood of emotion and excitment and gratitude.
there is a baby growing inside me guys!!!!!
brock was so sweet and just as excited to hear that little heart beat. he keeps reminding me what it sounded like and will make the sound =)
he told me thanks for being a good momma and gave me a sweet hug in the parking lot after we left the office.
what an amazing day and an amazing gift we have to be women and mothers and carry babies!!
i am so relieved to have heard the heart beat and to now be in my second trimenster (15 wks today) where the risk of miscarriage is much much lower. i will not waste any more of my time worrying that i have lost my baby and will soak up every moment of this pregnancy till this baby is here (headaches included i guess) all the while keeping in mind that Heavenly Father has control over everything and he knows what is best for me and my sweet husband and our little family.
we will get to see the baby on the 13th of may when i have my first (and only, unless there are any complications or need) ultrasound! that will be another trip, actually being able to SEE the little thing in there!
another picturless post =( boo. i will be better about taking pics. brock-help me k?

Friday, March 22, 2013

I've got a bad case of the pregnancies!

growing a human is hard work!

on the forefront (or should i say forhead!): headaches!
i spoke too soon last week when i said i am so lucky i haven't gotten any headaches yet, which was an automatic expectation for this cronic headache girl.
but then they came. and boy did they come!
its usually on the left side of my head. peircing pounding pain.
and don't tell me i can take tylenol for them, cause i know. and i have. and it does NOTHING!
i have been using essential oils as well and sometime it helps (as in eases it maybe 15-25%) and sometimes the smell just makes them worse!
the pain was so bad the other day it made me physically sick =(
i am to the point where i feel like i am always on the verge of another debilitating headache all the time so i dont want to make any sudden movements or look at bright lights just to try to avoid one.
please tell me this is like a first trimester kinda thing.

the other joys of growing a human
two words:
back pain.
another shockingly horrible surprise.
i did NOT expect back pain this severe this early on.
its just as bad (luckily less frequent) than the headaches!
two saturdays ago i had a RS activity to help put on.
after about 5 hours or work, i limped into the house and went to the bed immediately thinking that getting of my back would help.
i laid down and my sweet husb brought me some frozen peas so i could alternate hot and cold.
by the time he came back in the room, i couldn't move.
i couldn't pull myself up, or to the side or even roll over.
Brock pulled me up and i immediately screached out in pain saying back down! put me back down!
so i laid there and cried like a little baby. it hurt!
i've never experienced any sort of back pain like that.
needless to say, i have had back pain on and off since then (and a little before just not as severe)
i think it is my sciatic....based on stuff i have looked up on the internet.
i've been tryin to pin point the stressors that quickly spin me into old lady limping but i just can't figure out if it is when im on it too much, or im not moving enough.
either way, it suUucks

lets see, what else..

oh. my face fuzz (aka peach fuzz on my face) is growing like crazy.
boo. gross. boo.

ive been wearing maternity pants for like 2 weeks now and i am fairly certain i will wear them for the rest of time. so comfortable!
that and maxi skirts! we had a girls night with the sil's and we made maxi skirts.
i made a black one and love it! i have 3 more to make so if anyone wants to come over and make them with me please! come!
for realsies

then there are the rest of the normal things like smells.
everything brock eats pretty much makes me leave the room.
and pizza. just the thought is enough to send me into a heaving heap of hot mess.

and pee. tmi?
i have to go SO much and its starting to effect my sleep. 3 times a night is the record so far and it is freaking annoying. i just want to sleep!
i know you are all murmuring "get use to it!"

i will be in my second trimester at the end of this month and i can't wait!
i am hoping that after that (and my next apt where i will hear the heart beat) my crazy thoughts of "is my baby still alive in there" will ease a bit. maybe not, but i am hopeful it will after those two milestones.

in other news, we are selling our house and moving to bountiful!
we just countered our first offer today so pray for us that it will all go through without a hitch!

p.s i think i will do the occasional pregnancy update, just to document and remember the things i am experiencing here on the blog, but don't expect a weekly bump update!
lets face it, i looked 3 months pregnant before i even got pregnant so the bump wont be too exciting till its a real bump. not just a im fat bump!


p.p.s sorry for this pictureless boring post. i have been sadly horrible at taking pics lately.
also a i need to post about how i told brock we are preg. i'll get that one in the works here soon.

p.p.p.s although growing a human is hard, and there are some not so fun things about it, i am so grateful for all the symptoms i am experiencing because each one just means there is life growing inside me, and i am able to experience this amazing blessing that i know so many struggle with.

ok im out.

12wks 1day

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

baby brash: this is how it all went down

warning: this post has period talk in it!
brock and I started trying back in august. from the begining I always felt like I would get pregnant right away. and for most people 6 months is right away so I can't complain.
my dr. told me it would take about a year for the first time so that was in my mind.
I wasn't going to worry until that time.

my last cycle included an iffy period. I had some spotting for the first couple days then nothing.
that was unusual because my periods are always the same, never any surprises.
but my first thought did not automatically go to "I must be pregnant"
I just thought it was weird and kept telling Brock that it was weird.
finally after 5 days of no regular period I decided it was time to take a test.
but it was sunday. and I didnt have one!
so i had to wait until mondady.
I stopped by Harmons on my way to work and took it when I got to work.
yep. all by myself!
it was a surreal experience to say the least.
the test was immediately positive.
and I couldnt believe my eyes.
a bunch of things went through my mind.
the first was gratitude.
then i collected myself and left the bathroom, pee test in hand and sat at my desk and stared at it.
then i relized i was having all these thoughts and emotions so i opened up a bog post and started jotting down them down in a draft.
here is the list in raw form lol
"holy crap"
"im shaking"
"my heart is still pounding"
"is this for real?"
"of course im preg, i didnt start my period"!
"how do people keep this a secret for so long"!
"how am i going to tell brock"!
"I cant concentrate or focus"
"I keep looking at the test"!.
I probably looked at the test 50 times in the first hour.
then the following jotted feelings:

"the plus sign has faded its been about an hour.. now i am wanting to test again just for that confirmation."
"I dont want to get my hopes up for something that might have been a false pos. but they are pretty much already up now."
I went and picked up three more tests different brand this time from all-a-dollar.

"just took another test (a different kind) still pos"!! =)
then I decided to have a little fun with Brock!
I sent him the following email:

then I started scheming how I was going to tell him. that got me even more excited!
before we even started trying I knew how I wanted to tell him, but that didn't end up working out because my source moved to California and it would have taken a few days and I couldn't wait that long to tell him so I came up with a new plan. I will do a seperate post on that.
So here are the deets:
I will be 10 weeks on friday.
we couldnt wait to tell people. At first I wanted to wait till 14 weeks to tell people, Brock is all about telling people and I really wanted to also cause we were/are so excited but I was worried about miscarriage of course.
then I started thinking about it and thought you know what, if I do have a miscarriage, thats whats supposed to happen and people deal with that everday. I will handle it regardless if people know Im preg or not.
so there.
my due date as per google.com is Oct 3.
I have my first visit on Wed Mar 6th so we will see how far off that date is!
I will do another post about my birth plan (yes I alreayd have one, and have had one for months! I have been reading so many books since we started trying and have chosen the right path for me and our family.)
so thats where we are at!
Posts to come:
how I told brock
birth plan
oh ps. an explanation of "baby brash"
on the norton side all the marrieds have celeb names like "branjalina" (brad and anjalina)
ours is brash (brock and ash)
hence "baby brash"

Monday, February 25, 2013

and baby makes three!

well we are pregnant!
obviously i have a ton to blog about, and plan on it sommmmeday but with no internet at home its kinda hard. hopefully i will get around to it soon.
until then,
here is a vid of us announcing to my sisters that we are pregnant!
best reaction ever!
love them!

Thursday, August 16, 2012


most people i know don't announce to the www that they are trying to have babies.
but i guess we are not most people.

when we were dating we kept our relationship a secret for a month.
we kept our engagement (well our decision to get married) a secret for a month.
and if it were up to me, we would keep the fact that we just had my birth control removed
(it was in my arm)
a secret as well.
but my husb likes to tell people things, so now you all know too!

we are officially crazy trying!

with this information out, i fear that i will constantly be getting the question of "are you pregnant yet?!"
....mainly from my mom but i fear it none the less.

so don't ask =)

we will let you know when it happens!

i was scared.
for two reasons.

1. being cut open to have it removed
2. for the outcomes that this descision will create! (i will probably do a post on this one all by itself)

brock was so sweet and got off work early to come with me cause he knew i was nervous.

we went to spaghetti factory afterwards to celebrate!

so there you have it.
i don't think the severity of this decision has fully set in....and probably wont till we see the double pink lines on that stick.....

p.s. i can't wait till my dang hair grows out so that when i curl it i don't look like a country western singer with big ol' hair

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