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Friday, December 30, 2011

happy new year!

1 day

37 hours

2243 minutes

134629 seconds

we are having a little get together at our house for new years. family and a few friends for games and yummy food and ringing in the new year! wooo!
it's the perfect time to make the appetizers and hors devours (weirdest word ever btw)
that i have been wanting to make but haven't had an excuse!
a glimpse into the menu:
warm artichoke shrimp dip
clam cheese ball
courtesy of brock's grandmothers recipe!

pita break crisps
for dipping of course

Antipasto Sausage Skewers

and we need something sweet, so....
no bake oreo truffles

im getting hungry

it's going to be a Paaaartay


Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Obama Budget Cuts Visualization


this post will certainly not be the most popular, or well received, but i am interested in other peoples thoughts on this, and would like to share my own.
we all have our opinions and i hope that this does not offend anyone.

 kids and electronics.....

i think this is a controversial subject, but is probably becoming  less of one because it is becoming more common

i used to think it was so ridiculous to see 8 year olds with cell phones.
while i still think it is ridiculous, the issue is becoming worse!
constantly i am seeing kids under 5 using their parents iphones, ipads, computers.
i am baffled by this!
i don't feel like i am technically challenged in any way but these kids know how to use these items better than i do!
it is seriously sickening to me!

i don't want an iphone to stick in front of my kid to shut them up during sacrament.
i don't want an ipad to keep them occupied while i am getting things done around the house.
these things are addicting as is are for adults.
now we are sticking our kids on them?!
i can't imagine raising a child on a phone or computer and what they will need/expect in regards to electronics when they are older.

my views on electronics has changed dramatically in the last couple of years.
it started with cable tv.
then cell phone.
 i am to the point that i can live without it all
we don't have cable. we don't have internet. we have a cell phone for calls and texts only.
we use the internet at the library when we need it
we are surviving, and we have time to get things done!

again, as technology increases in availability and convenience, this opinion is wildly unpopular.
 i am ok with that.

don't get me wrong......i KNOW that theses can all be used for such great things with kids.
for example my sweet little nephew has some sensory 'delays' and these things are great for helping out with that. that is just one example so i know they are there.

i'm just baffled by the use of these electronics by small kids.
i have seen it become an expectation.
kids see their parents with the phone and they start screaming for it!

i'm sure these are good for learning and even coordination, stuff like that. there are definitely benefits. but sticking a phone in front of a kid to keep them quiet or occupied when they don't really know what they are doing to begin with, just pushing buttons or swiping the screen, that's where my frustration comes in.

what are your thoughts?
i'm open to them all
(and am prepared for most to be opposing to mine...which is just fine!)

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

This year will go down in history...


every year, as the year comes to a close, i like to reflect on the things that happened and the things that i experienced.

each year there are big milestones, new friends, new travels, and this year was no different.
there is one thing that sums up the year and that is our wedding day!

all the things that i have experienced through the years have led me to this sacred milestone in 2011
2011 will certainly go down in history as the year that we started our eternal family.
it has been a great year and i can't wait to see what is in store for us in 2012!

bring it on!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Happy Friday to Us!

today is the beginning our our lonnnnng weekend.
it's a full one but it will be alot of fun.

Tonight we are heading to the Wray family Christmas party. There will definitely be singing and story time by grandpa! Love it!

Tomorrow we are up bright and early to head for vegas. Wedding/Sealing at 2. Dinner at 5 then play time with Stacie and Matt! can't wait to see them!

Then its home for the annual christmas eve chinese dinner with the sibs. (siblings)
yep thats the tradition and we love it!

Christmas will be filled with wray's and nortons.

Then temple square date and hot choc on monday.

Now we just need to pray for clear roads to and from vegas.

Last weekend we were in cali, blog post to come.

I think we will be all wedding/road tripped out by this time next week.

I am so excited to spend my first Christmas with my husb and start our own holiday traditions in our own little family!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Adventures in Brock's sleeping stories

as you may well know by now, brock is a crazy sleeper
proof here and here

well last night brock professed his love for me in his sleep.

at 1:49 a.m. i am laying in bed and here him say this:

"ashlee norton, i love you. you are the only one for me. always and forever"

how sweet is that! lol

i definitely fell back to sleep with a smile on my face!

i love my crazy little sleeper! and would much rather take that each night then being mistaken for a terrorist and being attacked in bed in the middle of the night!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

More home projects

we have done so many projects since we bought our house that I haven't had time to blog them all.

These are some that we did in the summer:

new curtains!

I bought curtains from ikea ( i can't remember if they were 20 per panel or 20 for both but either way they were cheap)
we hung them with 1" conduit. 
Have you looked at prices of curtain rods!? they are not cheap!
so we ghetto rigged ours. 
i thought about spray painting the conduit a rubbed bronze color but never did that. 
I think the conduit ran us a couple bucks.
And we had to borrow our brothers hack saw. (thanks Link!)

they turned out pretty good, but there are some spots that i should have been more careful with! If I ever do these again I will be more careful with the dark paint color around the white!
People are shocked when they find out that they are painted!
I didn't do this on these, but if you use regular wall paint (which I did) there is an additive you can buy that makes them washable and takes the stiffness our of the paint. 
I would probably do that next time too!
We have really high ceilings so I put the rod up above the window about a foot to show the height more.

We also ripped out the fence that was in the front of our house.
let me tell you, that was hard work!
thank goodness i have a hard working husband, we knocked this out at in a few hours



Now we just need to work on getting some landscaping in!

Cement Pad:

We have 2 random cement pads in our back yard. We decided to take one of them out and left the other for our shed someday.
This was another big project and Brock knocked it right out.
Seriously, he is such a hard worker and just gets stuff done!!
I unfortunately am the opposite, so he is perfect to have around! 

Monday, December 19, 2011

Things are slowly coming together.....

We have finished the headboard for our bedroom makeover and I am IN LOVE with it.
It turned out exactly how I wanted. 

I don't have any good pics of it, cause I don't have any bedding yet but here is a little sneak peak

and a pic of one of our side table lamps, which I am also in love with.
I scored it for $2 bucks at a yard sale this summer!

I still need to work on the curtains and the quilt.
Somewhere I will find the motivation to start those!

Homemade Christmas!

I've been making decorations this year, and thought i would share some simple CHEAP ideas!

reclaimed wood
Christmas sign:
paint or stencil and I added some gliter and twine 

Anthro copycat Christmas garland:
so easy, i used brown packaging paper, old book pages and spray painted some card stock to match the color scheme, cut out a bunch of circles (i did 3 sizes) then sewed them all together with the sewing machine.


Salt dough ornaments:
salt dough recipe:
 2 cups flour, 1 cup salt, cold water. Mix until has consistency of play dough. bake at 250 for 2 hours, then cool and paint.
I used a star cookie cutter. i forgot to poke a hole in the tops for the string to hang them so after they were baked and painted my smart husband pulled out the drill and our smallest drill bit and we drilled the holes in. i used some silver glitter and modge podge after the paint dried.

Spray Painted Cardboard Christmas Trees:
cut out some Christmas trees from some leftover cardboard and spray painted them silver and added string

Paper ornaments:
template found here
used old book pages and twin for hanging

and of course a little glitter:
gold glitter, which can be found at dollar tree and sticks from your back yard!
spray painted the sticks then covered with modge podge and rolled in glitter!
these are so glittery and pretty!

and more glitter.
4" styrofoam balls from dollar tree (everywhere else they are $4 and up!)
roll in modge podge then in glitter. let dry and hang them from a branch with ribbon!
sorry this isn't a very good pic but you get the idea

when you are living on a budget saving for bigger, better things, homemade is the way to go.
thank you pinterest for cheap ideas that i can alter into my own!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Recipe: Pizza Dough

Another Norton Household fav:

This is a delish recipe that we use alot for pizza dough.
I got this recipe from a website called Annies-Eats.com
I usually make a couple batches and freeze it all until we are ready to use it.
{I’ve made some of my own notes in red}

Basic Pizza Dough
½ cup warm water
2 ¼ tsp instant yeast
4 cups (22oz) bread flour, plus more for dusting
1 ½ tsp salt
1 ¼ cup water, at room temp
2 tbs extra virgin olive oil

                Measure the warm water into a 2-cup liquid measuring cup. Sprinkle the yeast over the top. In the bowl of a stand mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, combine the bread flour and salt, mixing briefly to blend. (I don’t have a stand mixer just yet, so I use my hand mixer. Works out just fine). Measure the room temperature water into the measuring cup with the yeast-water mixture. With the mixer on low speed, pour in the yeast-water mixture as well as the olive oil. Mix until a cohesive dough is formed. Switch to the dough hook. Knead on low speed until smooth and elastic, about 5 minutes. Transfer to a lightly oiled bowl, turning once to coat. Cover with plastic wrap and let rise until doubled in size, 1 ½-2 hours.
Press down the dough to deflate it. Transfer the dough to a lightly floured work surface. Divide the dough into two equal pieces. Form each piece of dough unto a smooth round ball. (If freezing the dough, wrap each ball in tightly sealed plastic wrap then place in freezer bag and freeze at this point). Cover with a damp cloth. Let the dough relax for at least 10 minutes but no longer than 30 minutes.

To bake, preheat the oven and pizza stone to 500 degrees for at least 30 minutes. (we don’t have a pizza oven or stone, darn it. But a pizza pan works just fine!) Transfer the dough to your shaping surface, lightly sprinkle with corn meal. Shape the dough with lightly floured hands. Brush the outer edge lightly with olive oil. Top as desired. Bake until crust is golden brown, and cheese is bubbling, 8-12 minutes.

** If you froze it, just take it out of the freezer in the morning and place in refrigerator the day you plan to use it. 

Friday, December 9, 2011

craft hands

i have craft hands.
you know, warn blistered, rough, paint stained chipped nails...all of the above

I've been crafting away and loving every second of it.
last night Brock went over to his brothers and left me alone to my crafting madness.
It's kinda nice to have a night alone to my projects (although he is always missed)
I'm trying to get some of the bedroom projects done. All the big stuff is done...except the quilt
Painting...check, headboard...check, 
i need to post pics but am debating weather i wait till the whole room is done or just post along the way!
oh i also need to do my curtains. 
what I want cost more than my total room budget so I am of course making them.
dying fabric and all.
we'll see how they turn out, but I have high hopes!!

the weekends are going to be busy for us the rest of the year!

tonight we are having our single friends over! can't wait! I love them
tomorrow is bachelor party time for the norton boys and my sis in law is coming over for a beginner sewing lesson! not that i know very much but i do know some stuff!

next weekend our brother is getting married so we are off to cali for the weekend 

the weekend after that we are off to vegas for brock's childhood friends wedding

the weekend after that we are watching nephew cole.

busy busy busy.

somewhere in there i need to finish my Christmas shopping.
and try to finish all the projects around the house.
slowly they are gettin checked off, one by one.

it's a good thing i have Brock. He keeps me focused on projects and getting them done, rather than starting them and then slowly finishing & dragging them out or never finishing! that's one thing im really good at! he keeps me going!  

btw, people think im crazy for the things im doing, and don't see things like i do.
they use words like "interesting" or "it's definitely unique"
that's ok though cause thats what i want. things that are unique and things that i can be proud of cause i worked hard.
but maybe just a little sometimes i wish people just understood my visions and liked them like i do!
oh well.

happy friday!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Christmas Time is Here Again!

Goodbye Fall Decor.....


We plan on having a Happy, Homemade Christmas. 

Recipe: Zuppa Toscana

I have had some people ask me for recipes that I have tried, so I decided to just post them on here so I don't have to email them multiple times.

This is a favorite recipe at our house.
It warms your soul. Promise!
I got this recipe out if a cookbook I have had for a few years called America’s most wanted recipes. This is from Olive Garden (MY FAV!)
{I've made some of my own notes in red}
Yuuuum!! Tastes just like the real thing... if not better! For reals though. 

Zuppa Toscana Soup
1 Pound Italian Sausage ( I tried this recipe once with the spicy Italian sausage and it was just too hot. Stick with the regular Italian sausage)
8 Oz smoked bacon chopped ( I nix this in ours cause I don’t eat bacon)
4 cups water
Two 14.5 oz cans chicken broth
2 large russet potatoes (we do 3)
2 cloves garlic, crushed
1 medium onion
2 Cups chopped kale or swiss chard (I haven’t tried this with the chard but the kale is SO yum. Add the                       whole bunch even if it’s more than 2cups! It’s good stuff)
1 cup heavy cream
Salt & Pepper

1.  In a skillet over medium heat, brown the sausage (don’t forget to remove the casing!) into small pieces; drain and set aside
2.  In a separate skillet fry the bacon until brown, drain and set aside (again, I nix this step)
3.  Combine the water, broth, potatoes, garlic, and onion in a pot; simmer over medium heat until the potatoes are tender. About 10-15 minutes
4.  Add the sausage and bacon; simmer for 10 minutes
5.  Add the kale and cream. Season with salt and pepper to taste and simmer until the soup is heated through. Do not allow to boil

This makes about 4 servings. It’s perfect for brock and I cause we have lunch and dinner the next day and it’s just as good as leftovers!


Saturday, December 3, 2011

adventures in brock's sleeping stories

Here is another one for the books.

this one happened on our honeymoon.
i was somewhat aware that brock had sleeping issues before we got married, but i had no idea what i was getting into till the honeymoon.

one night we turned the tv on before going to bed.
there was a show called swamp wars on
they were hunting giant snakes in the swamps.

well we go to bed and im woken in the middle of the night to brock kicking. jumping. flailing his arms at the corner of the bottom of the bed.
he then JUMPS off the bed as i'm screaming "BROCK!" trying to wake him up.
he gets off the bed and says "man those snakes are dangerous!"

Thursday, December 1, 2011

The secret to having it all:

moroni 7:33 

And Christ hath said: If ye will have faith in me ye shall have power to do
whatsoever thing is expedient in me.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Stupid Cat

So my sisters and my dad got a kitten at the end of the summer.
I'm not a cat lover by anymeans
but kittens, they are a different story..
they are just so small and cute and cuddly.
so i loved the little kitty,
but now the little kitty is growing bigger
i'm trying to be friends with the cat but guess what,
the cat HATES me.

its hilarious. no one knows why.
when i try to hold it it literally claws and hisses and tries to run away.
if i hand it to someone else, it's fine. it's passed back to me and immediately starts clawing and hissing!!!
now its starting to hate brock too.

hahahaha its so funny.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

weekend recap

brock and  i didn't technically get a "long weekend" cause we had to work on Friday, but we did manage to get off at noon so our weekend started a few hours early.

I loved everything about this weekend.

We got tons done, including working on our headboard and getting our Christmas decorations up!
I had been looking forward to decorating the whole week.
And what better way to end a full day projects/decorating....
pizza and a movie by christmas tree light! (christmas vacation. a must for decorating day!)

I also got my heating blanket and oh.my.gosh
its heaven.
it keeps me nice and toasty warm in bed, while my husb likes it cold and crisp.
now we both win!
It's seriously good.

I have lots of posts to come.
We decided live on a weekly cash budget to save more mulah so there isn't alot left over for buying extra 'things' so those things get hand made. But i'm loving the handmade DIY feel of everything i've done. I can't wait till we have kids and we can start traditions of hand made ornaments and decorations where they can help and make cherished memories all at the same time!

This weekend there was lots of crafting/homemaking going on.
Including but not limited to homemade Christmas ornaments. delish homemade lion house rolls, our headboard, the list goes on and on
so blog posts are to come when i can get over to the library for some internet usage.

The Christmas shopping has begun, and I am counting down the days till we can sneak away for a few days to attend Brock's brothers wedding in Cali (16 days).

oh. thanksgiving was good to.
i didn't really have to lift a finger except to make the rolls.
that was nice for once!

Last year i was a grinch. no tree, not really feeling the spirit of the season, but this year, i just can't get enough! I'm soaking it all in.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Gratitude, Day 23

I am grateful for creative inspiration.
I like making things and creating things and I always have.
That has been taken to a whole new level since Pinterest came along, and since I have been a blogger, landing upon such creative blogs.
I LOVE a good creative blog find. (maybe a little too much)

As I am planning out our bedroom makeover (sneak peak),  im trying to make the ideas in my head a reality, and searching through pinterest and these bogs has turned the creativity up a few notches!

Here are some of the things I have recently came across that have inspired some of our bedroom makeover ideas.

I LOVE everything about this:
I am going branch hunting tonight....


Love this silver plate rack:



Monday, November 21, 2011

Gratitude, Day 21

don't you love the kind of weekends where there is nothing scheduled,
you get alot done but also had a very relaxing weekend?
thats what our weekend was.

all this was accomplished at our house:

made a jewlery holder (for a whopping 75 cents..post to come) which forced me to organize my jewlery
started on our headboard (post to come)
made 2 gallons liquid soap for 50 cents! (post to come)
started and finished a video game (this one was the husb)
made successfull lion house rolls (practice run for the thanksgiving roll assignment)
made a not so successful turkey meatloaf.
cleaned up and rearanged the bedroom
made it to olive garden and to a comedy show
got the grocery shopping done (the task i despise the most, that and laundry, which also got done)
hit up the thrift store. (post to come!)
and made a home depot run.
oh and got the ironing done!

whew thats alot.
and now i realize i have alot of blog posts to do!

I Live for Weekends.
I love every second of them.
(except for the sudden stomach flu symptoms)


Saturday, November 19, 2011

gratitude, day 19

i'm gratefull that i don't have to hide my weirdness from my husband.
he loves me even with all the weirdness!

Friday, November 18, 2011

just a few things

I am so excited about my bedroom makeover! I am feeling antsy to get started!

First year of being married calls for sending out a family Christmas card right?! I have (what i think is) a cute idea for ours this year! Now i just need it to snow so I can carry out my plan!

I was feeling crafty last night so I made a cute little "Merry Christmas" sign for our Christmas pics. I also made myself some sweater leg warmers. you know how those are the thing right now. I've got some cute new boots sitting in my closet that they will go perfect with.
Easiest/cheapest thing ever! I used the sleeves off a sweater that i got at a yard sale this summer that i have yet to wear. It was a bit frumpy and "grandma-ish" in the words of my boy. So i took the scissors to it. Now i have a cute pair of legwarmers for free and i actually like the sweater more now! I tried it on as a little sweater vest and kinda liked it!

Im getting more and more excited for Christmas. Im pretty ready for it to just be thanksgiving so i can start decorating!
One of my most favorite things is getting the tree up and everything done, then turning off all the lights axcept the tree, turning up the Christmas music and cuddling up in a warm blanket and taking it all in. It's one of the most peacefull things! Someday ill be able to add a roaring fire to that scenario.

I have been listening to Christmas music now, and it does something to me. I cant NOT sing. no matter what. I think my husband has seen a side of me that he didn't expect? I BELT it. and don't care if im off key or dont know the words. its just great!

I think elf said it best:

I don't know if I am actually spreading cheer with my singing or just calling all the stray dogs but it makes me happy!

Gratitude, Day 18

I am so grateful for the beauty of the earth that surrounds us.
On July 1, 2011 I received my endowments.
As I sat through the session, I was completely overcome with gratitude that our Father in Heaven would create such a beautiful place to send us to.
I've always loved being out doors and just soaking in the beauty, but that day  it really hit me that he created this beauty for US.

Just this morning as I was driving in to work, there was the most gorgeous sunrise.
It looked like there was a smokey fire in the sky, set back behind the clouds.
We have it lucky here in such a beautiful place.
I need to take more opportunities to recognize that.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Sneak Peak

Even though i can't work on my bedroom makeover yet,
 (still have to finish up a couple other projects, but i finally did get my recipes organized!)
I am gathering and shopping for things i need for the room.

Here is a sneak peak of a couple of the accessories.

i'm in love!
I have wanted one of these old vintage fans forever
I splurged a little on this one i found on KSL:

I found this amazing light at a yard sale this summer.
This is where the inspiration of the room is coming from
I love it!!

cost me a whole

more to come!
I can't wait till i can actually start working on the room.

It will be some work but worth the savings!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Gratitude, Day 15

Today I am grateful for electricity, and my husband who ordered me an electric blanket!!

No more sleeping with literally 5 HUGE blankets and a heating pad at my feet anymore!!
(well after the 29th, which is when it will come)

oops. guess i wasn't supposed to know about the blanket lol.
just got an email from the husb that said " you weren't supposed to know about that"
guess i ruined the surprise.

but im still really really gratefull ;)

Nice Little Reminder for Myself

Monday, November 14, 2011

Gratitude, Day 14

today I am grateful for a job that has no dress code!
this morning it was too cold to even think about changing out of my sweats into cold stiff jeans.
i didn't! i came to work in my SWEATS.

don't judge.

Gratitude day 13

Since I don't have internet at home, I have to leave the weekend posts till Monday

Today I am grateful for :
per·spec·tive [per-spek-tiv] :
the state of one's ideas, the facts known to one, etc., in having a meaningful interrelationship

namely with the gospel and life.
it is so easy to get caught up in trying to be perfect, or nearly perfect or to portray that our lives are so.
to try to take the best dessert to the game night you were invited to.
to try to have the cutest outfit,
or the best stories,
or the best whatever it may be.
we all want to impress others, but when it really comes down to it, if we have the right perspective,
we really only need to impress our Father in Heaven.
we really just need to have the right perspective of why we are here.
to help others, to be Christlike, to obey the commandments, and be good examples along the way.
when you have the right perspective, life doesn't seem as hard.
The key is just keeping the right perspective.
when we get down to the basics, and the fundamentals of the gospel, and we live those,
this is where we gain perspective.

Gratitude Day 12

I am grateful for the temple.
We are sooooo lucky to live so close to so many temples.
I literally drive past or can see 4 temples on my way to work.
Brock and I were able to make it to the temple on Saturday to do sealings for the first time since we were sealed on July 2, 2011.
It was a great experience and I am so grateful for the blessings that the temple brings.
They may be small (...or large) but they are there, we just need to recognize them.
What a beautiful place, inside and out.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Gratitude, Day 11

I am grateful to live in America.
I'm grateful for my freedom and safety.
 I am grateful that i can worship how i want.
I'm grateful that i don't have to worry about things that so many countries in the world have to fear.

11/11/11 @ 11:11 AM


                                                            11/11/11 @ 11:11

Bedroom Makeover on a Budget

 since we bought our house completely re-done, we haven't had to do much to it, besides decorate and add our own personal touches.

we have pretty much done every room except the one we spend the most time in.
the bedroom.

its bare.
not one thing hung on the wall.
no nice bedding.
no curtains.
no headboard.

which means its a huge empty canvas

so we are going to start on it.

i tend to start projects that i either never finish, or just stop working on,
which was brought to my attention by my love.

soooo my commitment is to finish those projects (organize my recipes and make a jewlery thingy)
thennnnnn i get to start on the bedroom!

it's going to be a challenge.
im limiting myself to a budget of $200.00
thats it.

for paint, bedding, wall decor, lighting, everything
200.00 bucks.

i'll post as i go, but till then here is a little sneak peak.
(thanks to pinterest for inspiration!)

im in love with this blanket and you bet i will be making it
i have a collection of fabric that needs to be used
annnnnd i found a sweet old lady selling her old fabric on KSL
and bought fabric last night for
drum rollllll please....

5 cents a YARD!!!!

that is how this makeover will get done.

handmade, thiifted, recycled,
i can't wait!

stay tuned!!!

then when the makeover is done....
i'll be doing a little giveaway on my blog to help YOU start your little (or big)
DIY projects!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

gratitude day 10

I was going to leave this one for closer to the end because I realize that all the things I am grateful for are because of my Heavenly Father and my brother Jesus Christ.

Today I am thankful for my Savior.
I am grateful for his sacrifice and the opportunity I have to make my very imperfect self, clean and repent every single day.
I am grateful for the constant companionship of my Savior when I am feeling most alone. 
He is always there. 

the ugly truth

birth control:
not only does it control birth it also controls you.

a couple weeks before i got married i started birth control.
i had no previous experience with it before so i didn't know what to expect other than the possible weight gain.
that was the only thing i really heard about as a possible side affect.

i only wish i had known that i would have the side effects that i ended up having.

after we got married i started noticing changes in my moods, in my demeanor, in my attitudes, in my over all personality.
i was short with my sweet new husband.
in arguments i would storm out. (which i have never done before ever)
i would start arguments out of sheer frustration over the smallest things.
i was a big B word for the first two months of our marriage. to put it lightly
i had no idea where this was coming from.
i didn't feel like myself.
i cried myself to sleep multiple times a week.
i started questioning my position in my marriage and if i could even handle marriage.

this was all shocking and very painful to experience.
i started feeling depressed (which is a word i hate and avoid using)
but here i was really starting to feel that.

i chalked this jumble of emotion up as
having a hard time to adjusting to marriage.
which didn't feel right because i have never had a hard time adjusting to anything.
i adapt to things and situations in life very easy.
but for some reason this wasn't so easy.

all the while i had the most understanding husband.
he was so caring and sweet and when i would burst into tears for no reason he was there to hug me.
he would say " it's ok i understand people need a good cry every now and then"
he was understanding even when i didn't understand what was going on with me.

i felt isolated and felt alone even with an amazing husband by my side. and was worried about the person i was becoming and why this was happening.

one day on  a blog post i mentioned something to the effect that i was having mood swings and that i was having a hard time adjusting to marriage.

someone commented on my blog and said are you on birth control? maybe that's the problem.

immediately a light went off.
that HAD to be it, i thought.
 so i started doing some research.
i was quickly astonished and relieved when i found forum after forum about birth control that had women talking about and saying the exact same things i had been feeling and experiencing.
i suddenly didn't feel isolated or alone.
i had an answer and a reason to this madness.

i immediately called my doctor, who couldn't see me for another MONTH!
so i'd have to wait.

but i couldn't wait. i was so sick of the way i was feeling, that i decided to stop using my birth control.
not to have babies, but to start to feel normal again, i couldn't wait until i saw my dr.

the change was literally like night and day. once my hormones balanced back out, i was back. i felt like i could breath again. i felt like a huge cloud had been lifted.
i was happy again.
the only problem was, now i was not on any birth control, and i felt like i had lost the first two months of my marriage.
sad, but true.
i felt like our marriage started off on  a bitter note because of the way i was feeling.
but things definitely turned around.

i went and saw the dr and she told me that it was more than likely the estrogen that was making me feel crazy.
she recommended an estrogen free method which was either an IUD or what is called Implanon, which is placed in your arm under the skin.

I opted for the latter and now have a small rod in my arm that acts as birth control.

There are still similar side effects, and i have started having slight mood swings, after being on it for a couple weeks, but NOTHING like what it was before. hopefully it stays that way.

i hope that this is the method for me, and that it works for my body and my hormones.
it's the last thing to try to if it doesn't work, then i guess its time to start having babies!
which is a whole new bundle of crazy hormone problems that i don't think we are quite ready to experience.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

gratitude day 8 & 9

I am grateful for a good hair and makeup day.
It's a wonder how much better you feel about yourself on these days!

Another thing i'm grateful for is when an outfit comes together beautifully.
That's also another confidence booster.
It's the best when you get a couple new peices, like a new skirt and new boots and suddenly that one cardigan you don't wear that often, and that one shirt from the back of your closet all work with this one or two new pieces. 
It's like you got a whole new outfit! Not to mention the jewelry that you hardly wear now matches something!
(this happened to me on sunday =). )


Monday, November 7, 2011

Gratitude Day 6 & 7

I am gratefull for
weekends will my husb and family and perfect naps.

I'm also gratefull for my job.
Even though i hate waking up in the morning to go sit at a desk all day, 
I'm gratefull to have a job and to have had a job since i was 15 years old.
The finacial security it gives and the learning experience that a job is, is what i am grateful for. 

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Product Post:

 dont really ever do this, blog about products, cause i dont have many favorite products that i use all the time, but i do have a few:

extreme ice
this stuff makes your lips feel icy and smooth and smells good too!

johnson & johnson lotion
melt away stress
body lotion
this stuff is great. i hate lotion that makes your palms feel greesy. i used to have to put lotion on the tops of my hands and rub only the tops together cause i hated the way lotion felt on my palms, till i started using this stuff. its good. and smells amazinnnnnng!
i dont know if it actually "melts away stress" but its good stuff.
i have a carry size in my car, my purse, my makeup bag, my office. i like it THAT much.

Loreal Double Extend

I really like this becuase it comes off in clumps. if your face gets wet, you dont have black tears running down your face. it jsut clumps off.
it also really does make your lashes look a bit longer.
good stuff

now i need some recommendations for face/wrinkle cream.
i think its past time i start using it.