Friday, December 20, 2013
My Natural Hypnobabies Water Birth:
WARNING: This is
probably the longest blog post I have ever
written! I will be shocked if anyone actually reads the whole thing! But if you
do make it to the end…enjoy!
Also, There are pictures of me right before and after she was born included, they don't show anything, just me in a sports bra, but if you think thats weird then you can stop reading if you so choose =)
It has been over two months since London was born and sadly it has taken me this long to sit down and write out her birth story. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to or thought about it on a very regular basis, the problem is I have had a major case of writers block. I hope this doesn't come along with being a mother, because blogging and journaling will never get done! The other problem is, when I sit and think about putting her birth story into words, there is no way to write and express in words how I feel about it and how it went. Not because I am drawing a blank, but just because it is impossible to convey the beauty, feelings and emotion behind the experience. That has led me to avoiding it all together. But I want to make certain that it is documented,
so here is my bleak attempt to write it out.
My due date was October 1. There is room for debate on that date, and here is why. That number is based on my last cycle. When I had my one and only ultrasound at 20 weeks, he determined that it was about October 3rd, but kept it at the 1st since it was so close to the third. At one of my last few appointments one of the midwives said the 6th…I have no idea where that date came from, and finally, I wasn’t 40 weeks until the 4th so I guess technically that should have been the “due date”. In the end the due date did nothing but drive us all crazy because all those days came and went. My mother in law flew in on Sept 29th thinking that for sure in the week and a half that she was here she wouldn’t miss the birth. She was here for conference weekend, and you better believe in between sessions I was walking, and playing at the playground with our niece and nephew and doing whatever I could (naturally) to get this baby here while she was here. Unfortunately that did not happen. London decided to come on Saturday October 12th. Exactly one week and one day past my due date (or at least one of them!). Interestingly enough, the average first time pregnancy for low risk mothers is also one week and one day! She came when she was good and ready.
|looking at these pics is hilarious. i was HUGE!|
Side Note: For our birth we used hypnobabies. This birthing method uses different terminology for things like contractions (pressure waves), and labor (birthing time) and transition (transformation). The purpose is to replace terms that generally have a negative denotation attached to them. I will be using this terminology. I will also mention things like using my “lightswitch” I may do a separate hyponobabies blog post to talk about what some of these things mean and the techniques that are used. Until then, some of what I say here may only make sense to people who are familiar with hypnobabies.
Here is how it all went down…..
On Thursday (the 10th) we went to bed with no sign of any change. I woke up at about 2:30 in the morning to use the bathroom and felt something I hadn’t felt before…..a pressure wave! Not just Braxton hicks, this felt different. So I knew right away that things were going to start happening! I started timing the pressure waves. They were about 13 minutes apart. After I had timed several pressure waves, I decided to go out into the living room and refresh my memory of what will be happening from here on out with some reading from my hypnobabies books and also write in my journal. I wanted brock to be able to have a good nights sleep so I didn’t want to wake him up just yet.
Here is what I wrote in my journal:
“Well I think today might be the day! I’ve been up since about 2:30am (didn’t check the clock till about 2:50am) with what I believe are pressure waves! (just had one as I wrote that!). I’m not sure if I lost my mucous plug when I went to the bathroom at 2:30. I felt a tiny something that may have been it, but it was barely noticeable, I was half asleep and the light was off. I started checking the time at 2:50am, and my pressure waves were 13 minutes apart. I think now they are about 10-11 minutes apart. Brock should be up soon (his alarm goes off at 6am), so I’ll break the news to him then! J I wanted him to be able to get as much sleep as possible. At about 3:30 there was a little bit of pink mucous stuff in the toilet so that’s a good sign! Other than that, I just have crazy pressure in my lower back with my pressure waves. I’ve tried turning my light switch off during them, but have found that they are soooo much more bearable if I flexed my butt! (weird, I know!) Not sure if that is normal, but it helps! I know I’ve still got a while to go though cause we don’t have to call the birth center until pressure waves are 5 min apart, each lasting more than 1 min and I can’t walk or talk through them, for at least an hour. It’s funny cause I think Brock got the nesting urge last night. I wonder if subconsciously he knew that the baby was going to come cause he cleaned up dinner, cleaned up the kitchen, did some laundry, hung up the last shelf in the nursery and was just getting lots done around the house! I’m glad it’s all done too cause we won’t have to worry about doing any of that today or when we come home with a baby!”
Shortly after I wrote this, I went in and woke brock up (he thought he had slept through his alarm). I told him “I think you might need to call in sick today, I’ve been having pressure waves for the last 4 hours..” He then replied, “are you serious? How far apart are they!?” I told him 10 minutes and his response seemed surprised that this was serious enough to even be timing them and that I knew they were 10 min apart! So he got out of bed and our (Fri)day began!
|40 weeks 1 day|
We pretty much just hung out all day and my pressure waves were consistently 10 minutes apart. Brock had a previously scheduled lunch with a couple of his buddies to talk business at noon, so I told him you should still go. Nothing is changing here, and there isn’t much you can do so go ahead and go. Plus he was going to café rio and I really wanted him to bring me some ;). He said are you sure?! Yep! So he went for a couple hours and while he was gone I worked through my pressure waves and was actually able to sleep in between them thanks to my use of hypnobabies! That was nice, since I didn’t get a full nights sleep, and I wanted to feel rested when I actually went into my birthing time. Brock got home, and I had some yummy café rio. My sister showed up to pick up her coat, and was surprised to see brock home. We had planned not to call and tell anyone when I went into labor because we didn’t want a bunch of people calling/texting the whole time wanting updates and to see how we were doing. We just wanted to be able to focus on the task at hand….having a baby! And not have to worry about updating everyone. This was especially important to use in the birthing choice we made with hypnobabies because it is all about concentration and relaxation. But when molly showed up we let her know what was going on. She ended up staying and hanging out with us for a few hours. At about 7 pm we all decided to take a walk to see if we could get things moving along. Brock and I played a game of monopoly and then decided to go lay down in bed and try and get some rest since there hadn't been any real changes. Im not sure what time that was, because I had no sense of time whatsoever. Time went by so fast throughout my whole labor. It was probably about 7:30 or 8 pm (we are still in Friday). Brock read, and I just laid in bed and was able again to sleep in between my pressure waves. Brock was so good at making sure I was drinking water after each pressure wave and changing positions every 2 hours. So at about 10pm I changed positions. I started getting really uncomfortable and the change in position helped a lot. At this point I had Brock start timing my pressure waves again. There was one that was about 8 min then the rest were about 5 with one that was like 3 and one that was 4, so things had changed quite a bit in the time that we got in bed. One funny/interesting observation I had was that throughout the day I was also peeing like crazy. I went through a whole roll of tp! I guess that was from the combination of drinking a lot and the baby moving down and putting more pressure on my bladder. I just remember thinking how crazy it was how much I was using the bathroom lol!
We stayed in bed, Brock fell asleep at 11:45pm for a couple hours and I started getting increasingly uncomfortable so I tried a few positions on the birth ball but sitting was very uncomfortable so I started walking around the house. I literally just started doing laps around the kitchen and that helped tremendously. I just walked through my pressure waves. About 1:30am I had to use the bathroom (again!) and I started feeling pushy, which had me a
little lot concerned! As I was on the toilet, my body kinda just took over and pushed…..and my water broke! I know what you’re thinking….oh, perfect place to have your water break, right? Nope, it actually went all over the floor since I was pushing right when it broke so it was more of a burst! I called into Brock and he came in to help. I jumped into the shower and my sweet husband cleaned up the mess I just made on the floor J The warm water felt SOOOO good, I didn’t want to get out! Brock said what are you doing! And I just told him it just feels so good! So I finally got out of the shower and got dressed and we called the midwife. If you recall from earlier I mentioned that they have you call when your pressure waves are 5 min apart, each lasting more than 1 min and you can’t walk or talk through them, for at least an hour (I was still walking and talking through mine!)…..OR your water has broke.
A couple things of note: At our birth center they are on call at night so they are not at the birth center. They will send you home if you are not dilated to at least 5cm. The birth center was about 23 min away. Also, we paid for the student program (cause it was a little cheaper) which means that a student midwife does all my checkups with the head midwife there supervising as well as the birth.
So when I called in, I called into the student midwife and told her everything that had happened up to that point and she said ok, I’ll call the midwife and see if she wants to have you come in. My thought was I hope they tell me to come in cause I’m feeling ready, but I didn’t really know how far along I was, just that my water had broke and my pressure waves were 5 min and less apart. So while we were waiting for their call back, brock started packing up the car while I worked through some more pressure waves. I told brock, let’s just start heading that way so we are close to the birth center if they tell us to come in. I just wanted to get close cause I felt like I was getting closer to having this baby! So just as we walked out the door I had a couple of strong pressure waves that were preventing us from getting in the car. We had at least made it outside though and it was quite chilly out but it felt so good to this birthing mama! Meanwhile, the midwife called back and asked me a bunch of questions. The whole time I was on the phone with them I was having to make them hold on while I worked through some pressure waves every few minutes so they were getting closer and closer together. During one of my pressure waves I heard the midwife say to the student midwife, “maybe have her get in a warm bath for a little while” and that freaked me out a little bit because I felt like I needed to be leaving right away and I wanted them to say come in but I still didn’t know how far off I was and I hadn’t ever been through this so in my mind I don’t know if I would have said no I think I need to come in now and would have just waited until they told me to come in. After that pressure wave they told me that they wanted me to do a squat test, to make sure my water had really broken. To me, this was laughable for two reasons. One, I was SURE my water had broke…and two, I wasn’t about to squat. I felt that was near impossible in the condition I was in. I gave them a little guff saying “why do I need to do this, I know my water broke…I had a huge gush of water, and I’m not about to squat”. They said they needed to make sure what was coming out so they told me to put a towel on the floor and put a white paper towel over that so I could tell them the color of what was coming out. So I did what the midwife ordered and to my surprise I was able to squat just fine. She told me to bare down and tell her the color of what was coming out. Brock let them know that it was a pinkish color with some white-ish stuff in it and they said ok ya come in now! This was about 2:40 in the morning, about an hour after my water had broke. They told me that it would take them about an hour to get there and to meet them there at 3:40, but then she changed her mind and said meet us there at 3:20. So I went into the living room and waited for a couple minutes and had a couple of pressure waves and asked brock to give me a blessing and then we left. I was DREADING getting in the car because I was so much more uncomfortable sitting at this point during my pressure waves but just as we left, my pressure waves actually eased up a bit during the car ride thank goodness! I was starting to get a little bit nervous that I might have this baby in the car so after the vision of that flashed through my mind, I said a quick prayer that that would not happen! The roads were barren of course at this time of the morning, so you would think that with a laboring passenger Brock would have stepped on the gas a little, but no….my staunch husband who rarely drives over 75 was sure to keep the speed limit J. Little stinker. In fact there was a red light that we hit once we got off the freeway and I wanted to tell him to go through the freakin light, but then a car came so I didn’t.
We made it to the birth center right about 3:25am. First thing, they wanted to check the baby’s heart rate and wanted to check me to see how far along I was. At this point I was having two pressure waves back to back, and then I would have a break of a few minutes so my midwife wanted to wait until that break to check me. The way it works on the student program that we were on, the midwife checks you first and then has the student midwife check you. When the midwife checked me she had a hard time finding my cervix (because unbeknownst to us it was fully effaced and dilated!) so when the student midwife checked she also had a hard time. At this time (right in the middle of the exam) I started having very vocal (my vocal was a deep grunting type of noise) pushing contractions so she immediately ended the exam and told me that I was fully dilated and ready to go! At this point they asked me if I wanted to have a water birth (I was still undecided about that until I got in the shower at home and felt how relieving and nice it was) and I told them yes and they started the bath. I had a whole birth plan written out that I had done weeks earlier with the expectation that I would have time to give it to them but that didn’t happen because things started happening so quickly once we got to the birth center! The birthing suite was upstairs, and at that point I had to get up there somehow. This seemed, at the time, to be an impossible task. I told them, I don’t think I can get up there. Looking back, I think this is when I hit transformation. Just as I made my way up the stairs my contractions eased up again and I had no issues getting up the stairs with Brocks help. I waited for the bath to fill the rest of the way and got right in. It was SO nice. I will definitely be having water births from here on out. It is so calming and helps so much with the pressure you are feeling in your lower body! Brock text my doula and our photographer saying “ Leave now! Not sure if you will make it!”
And the pushing began!
I stared having pushing pressure waves and they were intense! My body completely took over and just started bearing down and pushing! I was breathing very deeply and somewhat vocal. When you hear people talk about their natural births they frequently use the term primal in describing the noises they make during labor. My way of vocalizing was a sort of deep grunting sound I guess. My first position in the bath was a sitting position. I was in this position for a couple of minutes and then they had me change positions to hands and knees. This position was not allowing me to open and relax and I was doing the very opposite, and squeezing and tightening everything up while pushing. After a couple minutes of this, they could see that I was not opening everything up, my hips and legs and everything, I was just clenching up, so they had me change positions once more, this time to a semi sitting position. I’m not really sure how to explain that one.
|my midwife giving some counter pressure on my back|
The midwives were just encouraging me and telling me that I was doing great. I was totally in the zone! I had no idea what was going on around me. Another midwife showed up as well as my doula and I had no idea until my doula came right up next to my head and started giving me hypno ques. Brock had pulled out our hypnobabies “pushing baby out” soundtrack and had that playing and was askin g me what I needed and giving me water and helping me wher ehe could. I was just so intently focused on what I was doing. ! I was letting my pressure waves do all of the work and my midwife told me that I needed to push through the pressure wave. I finally figured out what that meant, and my pushing became much more effective. Then came the ring of fire…she was crowning! I have read countless birth stories, and I always heard that term ring of fire and wondered what that would be like and it was just that, a ring of fire. It was like a stretching burning feeling. It was at that point that I actually thought I was feeling pain (for the first time through all my birthing time!). I remember saying oww a few times during those few seconds but looking back, I don’t think I was actually feeling pain, just that immense burning feeling and had to vocalize the discomfort somehow! The midwife said I see a lot of hair!! Which was a total shock to me. I thought for sure we would have a baldy come out!. Once her head was out the midwife went in and shimmied her shoulders out and after a total of 7 minutesof pushing, our baby was here! The midwife pulled her out of the water and immediately put her on my chest. It took us a few seconds to realize we still didn’t know if we had a boy or a girl so I took a quick peek. IT’S A GIRL!!! I felt an immense sense of accomplishment and said “I did it!” Brock was right there to give me a kiss and look at our beautiful little baby girl! I just kept saying is she ok? Is she ok?
When babies are born in the water, generally they don’t cry right away because the transition from mother to water to being outside it much less traumatic on the baby then coming straight from the mother to the outside so she didn’t immediately cry. She did have a little trouble getting going though. She was pretty purple when she came out, which is normal to an extent, but she had a lot of mucus in her mouth and nose so the midwife wanted to start working on her to get her breathing better. I sat in the bath for a few minutes (I’m not really sure how long it was), but they wanted me to get to the bed so they could get to her better. They gave me a homeopathic to help the placenta pass and as I started to get out of the tub, It came right out. I didn’t even have to push it out and didn’t feel any contractions. We wanted to make sure the cord had stopped pulsing before it was cut so once that happened brock cut the cord and I made my way out of the bath and onto the bed.
|cutting the cord|
The next 45 or so minutes were spent clearing out her nose and mouth and getting her breathing under control. She had to have some oxygen given to her and that helped and she started to pink up and breath better. Most of this was done with her on my chest but some of it was done on the bed. This certainly wasn’t ideal, but the midwives were so great and I never felt worried and was completely confident in their care. I did have a couple small tears so at this point they got me stitched up. I remember the midwife apologizing that they had to do that, because of the pain I guess? But I just chuckled thinking, I just had a baby with no drugs! What do you think is going to be so bad that I can’t handle after what I just did!
Once she became more stable, I was able to try nursing her. They gave us about an hour to ourselves to just take in our new little baby, and then they came in and did her wellness check. She was a perfect little baby! She weighed 8 LBS 6 OZ and was 21” long! She had a full head of crazy hair! We were shocked that it wasn’t red, but more the color of Brocks hair!
Things happened and progressed so quickly that my photographer didn’t make it to the birth so we only got a few (blurry pics) but to tell you the truth, I am ok with that because I’m not so sure that I would have liked to see me in them! I wasn’t one of those beautiful beaming bright birthing mothers. I had makeup all up under my eyes, I was a hot mess so I am ok with what we got!
We stayed at the birth center for about three hours after she was stable, sent out all the announcement texts, called brocks mom and told her how it all went, and then headed home with our new little bundle of joy!!
My feelings on how my natural un medicated birth went:
It was perfect. I’m not sure I could have asked for a better experience. My hypno tools helped me tremendously and although I did experience immense pressure and discomfort, I was never really in pain. I am walking proof that a painless birth is possible and that my friends is amazing! I was in active labor for just over 7 hours and pushed for a mere 7 minutes! Brock was so amazing, supportive, helpful and encouraging! I wanted to (and still do) shout it from the rooftops that having a baby can be an enjoyable experience. That you don’t have to be scared and in pain and screaming and need drugs to get you through it. I feel like I can do anything after that experience. I have joined a very small percent of women who birthed their babies naturally with out any medical interventions. I did it. No one else. ME! It was a beautiful experience and I can’t wait for the next one!! J
And withour further adieu……
If you made it this far...thanks for reading my novel of a post!!
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Monday, November 4, 2013
Friday, November 1, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Friday, September 27, 2013
well i am 39 weeks today!
one week left and i can't believe it. its still not real!
i have been off work for a week now.
that is an adjustment all in itself.
it has been really weird being off work, having brock leave each morning and having the day to fill with preparations for the baby.
its got me in some sort of funk, but by the time baby comes i should feel more directed as my time will be filled with taking care of another person!
its just another transition in this big life changing even that is about to take place!
I have been able to get some things done this week though so its been nice and pretty productive.
i was able to make some of the essential oil blends that i will be using for the birth
i got some post partum stuff done (trying to prepare to take care of down there. uh um)
i think ill post a bunch of that stuff sometime so i can remember what i did and used for the next babies!
i got a couple last minute things ordered, the diaper pail and diaper sprayer. and some more diaper liners for the cloth diapers.
i have gotten to sleep in a little and try to catch up on the sleep i dont get at night. slowly but surely.
ill need all the sleep i can get with whats about to take place!
i was able to go shopping for all the ingredients i need to make some freezer meals.
one down and a few left to go.
thats what i will do today.
i was able to have a little pamper day this week. i got an hour prenatal massage that was so relaxing, and got my toes done. ill tell you what, im looking forward to being able to paint my own toes again! that and sleeping on my stomach again! CANT WAIT! my left hip is constantly killing me from sleeping on my left side all the time!
tomorrow i have another small shower and my MIL flies in.
hopefully this little babe decides to get here while she is here!
there are little random things i want to do like disinfect all the handles, door handles, blind pull thingys, cupboard handles, you know, the things we touch everyday! i have been wanting to do that since we moved into our place and sadly have not so thats going on the list of to do's for tomorrow.
plus brock has been sick the last few days so i need to get that place disinfected!
as far as the pregnancy goes, i found out a few weeks ago that my strep b test came back negative which i was soooooo thrilled about.
but then at my next appointment they informed me that i was strep G positive!
no one even knows what that is. its super super rare and of course i have it!
i was and still am pretty bummed about it because i will have to have an antibiotic administered during the birth witch means i will have to have a saline lock. im not too thrilled about that but it is what it is.
my protein was a little low at my last appointment so i need to eat more meat and eggs i guess.
other than that everything looks good.
i measured at 40 weeks at my last 2 appointments so who knows when this babe will come!
sadly i dont have any new pics to add here so this will be a boring pictureless post, but i am determined to get more this week since this might be my last few days being pregnant! sad!!
off to get my protein!
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
last weekend I had my family shower.
SADLY the second i got there my camera died =(
so i had to
steal borrow sadie's phone and only got a couple pics of me and my sisters.
|krissie, kirsti, big prego lady, amber|
|molly, big prego lady, court, sadie|
courtney did such a great job with the shower i'm sad i didn't get any pics of her cute decorations and yummy food! and the other guests!
later that day brock and i went shopping for the remainder of the things we need for this little babe.
buying things for a newborn can be so overwhelming! who would have thought!
im excited about the things we got though and the deals we got!
we used kid to kid for a couple things and ksl and target of course!
the rest (except diapers and a few other odds and ends that i still have to get) i ordered online so we will be getting packages in the mail for the next few days!
love that! its always fun coming home to a box sitting on the front porch. even though i know what it is, its like christmas!
brock emailed me the other day and was so cute. he said
"i just ordered a few things for the baby that were not necessity but im excited about them!"
ha i cant wait to see what they are!
i will be 37 weeks on friday and have what seems to be a never ending list of things to do.
most of them are things we should have done by the 37th week so the rest of this week is going to be busy!
we need to get the car seat in and take it in to have it checked for proper installation.
we need to get our birth bags packed
i need to finalize my birth plan for my midwives and my doula
still need to find a pediatrician!
thank you cards
and that is all while doing normal life things like achievement days today, doula appt and midewife appt tomorrow and the fair on friday! it will be a miracle if i get it all done!
and thats just this week. i have a whole other list of stuff to get done the week before the baby comes while i am off work (9 days and counting till my last day!)
that week will be fun stuff though. making last minute things like swaddling blankets, diaper bag, wipes, curtains for the nursery, get my oil blends done that i plan on using for the birth, and i want to take a day to deep clean the house and make some freezer meals for our little fam for the first week or two.
oh and i have a gift card for a mani/pedi brock gave me for mothers day that i have been saving for that week and a gift card that my SIL gave me for my bday for a prenatal massage that i have been saving too!
gotta get those scheduled!
then there are the things that i hope to get to but time is just not on my side, like watching happiest baby on the block again, reading Ina May's guide to childbirth, making a calming playlist for the birth/delivery,
da da da.
lots of stuff!
its getting closer and closer and doesn't seem any more real!
I got all the baby clothes/towels/washcloths/blankets washed and they are all sitting out ready to be put away. even those tiny little things hanging around still doesn't make it seem real and i am still unable to comprehend what is about to happen lol.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Aside from having a day off, I love summer holidays because it usually means family time!
Memorial Day is no different. Although it is sadly the close of summer, it is still a great holiday for things like tin foil dinners and smores! yuum!
Thursday, September 5, 2013
Time is quickly dwindling before this baby will be here and I am a mixed bag of emotions.
I am looking forward to meeting our little baby, but don't feel quite prepared!
I'm not ready to give up being pregnant quite yet!
(except all night while I toss and turn trying to get comfortable)
I feel like being pregnant is a part of me now and I am going to miss it.
I have absolutely loved being pregnant.
Good thing this is our first and I have more pregnancies to come!
There is so much to do, and only 26 ish days to do it in!
Luckily I leave work a week before the baby comes so hopefully I can fit it all in then.
I have what seems to be an endless list of things to do to prepare for this little human.
I am still trying to comprehend the fact that one day soon, we will be pulling into our driveway and entering our home with a new little person that will be an integral part of our family forever.
That tiny little squeaks and tiny little socks and tiny little toys and little tiny toes and will fill our home.
That our thoughts will immediately turn from ourselves and be focused on our child.
What a bazaar thing to try and wrap my head around!
Things are about to get real!
Friday, August 23, 2013
I think I mentioned on here that I chose a photographer and her prices were so great that we did a package deal that included maternity, the birth and the newborns.
I was hesitant about getting the maternity ones done, just cause who wants to look at pics of themselves when they feel so large?
But I decided to do it because I knew I'd love to look back at them even though right now I feel large! Plus her prices were just so good that it was basically free for the maternity shoot!
Anyways here is a little pregnancy update with some of the pics scattered throughout.
She did such an AWESOME job that it was hard for me to even narrow it down! This coming from the big prego lady that doesn't like to look at pics of herself right now!
That's how good she is!
These were taken at 31 weeks
Today I am 34 weeks.
I am feeling great, for the most part.
The biggest pain is still my back, but if I take it easy, its manageable. I've discovered that my birth ball
(yoga ball) helps a TON. It relieves a lot of the pressure on my back. I love it!
Sadie got married on Wednesday and I was on my feet all day. By the end of the day I could barely move. Bed time came and I didn't think I would sleep a wink. I didn't get the best of sleep but before I went to bed I did some stretches on my birth ball and it loosened up my back tremendously!
There were a few things that I wanted to avoid with this pregnancy, mostly all unavoidable.
I want to be able to wear my wedding rings for as long as possible and they are luckily still on! My only swelling has been in my feet and ankles.
I hope it stays that way! But in this heat with 6 weeks to go, I'm not counting on it.
In the beginning of my pregnancy I wasn't worried about weather or not I got them. But now that I have made it this far without stretch marks on my belly I REALLY just don't want them!
Same with that dark line that runs down the middle of your belly. I'm sure it will come, but I'm loving my smooth, freckled, stretch mark free round belly while I have it!
I have however acquired some lovely love handles with this pregnancy and they have sprouted a few stretch marks.
Can't win em all I guess
my belly button hasn't popped yet and I am certainly ok with that!
I'm hoping it doesn't lol.
Again, I'm not counting on it, especially since I am in the last stretch of this pregnancy and our baby could be gaining up to a half a pound a week!
It's definitely getting close though!
In my opinion (if you ask my sisters they would disagree), but based on the way I have felt, I feel like my emotions have been pretty well in tact. I don't feel like I had any real melt downs in my pregnancy when they tell you your hormones will do crazy things to you.....
But then at about 30 weeks, that's when the emotions came. Out of no where.
There still haven't been too many break downs, but there have definitely been a few!
As far as the nursery goes......
This weekend I am going to work on clearing it all out so that we can get it painted and organized.
I ordered crib sheets which should be on our door step when we get home and got the fabric in the mail for pillows I am going to make.
I got a rocker off KSL that we need to paint and then it's the fun decorating stuff!
Making curtains and hanging stuff on the walls!
I can't believe that we are in the home stretch.
Really, it's not real yet! I wonder if it will ever feel real!
I'll probably have a baby sitting in my lap and still feel like its not real.
Other people have kids. That's real. But having our own, is just so hard to comprehend!
A little growing thriving person with it's own little personality will soon be in our lives forever.
I still have 6 weeks to go (maybe more!) but I am already recognizing the feelings I am going to have when I am not pregnant anymore. I love being pregnant and although I am looking forward to the next phase and what all this work is for, I am going to miss being pregnant. I feel like its a part of me now! It's an awesome feeling and I love being the one that gets to feel the baby move and wiggle inside me.
Stretch marks, swelling and belly button popping aside!
The only thing I am NOT going to miss is people feeling they have the right to comment on my size!
You are crazy for thinking it's ok to tell a crazy hormonal pregnant lady: "WOW! You are big" after I tell them when I am due.
Or "You look ready!" when I still have a month and a half to go!
Or my favorite: "Are you having twins?!"
Or the lady at Michaels who decided to chat me up about my pregnancy and after telling me how big I am proceeded to tell me about 2 women that she knew that you couldn't tell they were pregnant until about two weeks before they were due! Awesome story lady. NOT!
I am so excited to see Brock as a dad. Honestly I think it is going to be one of the best dads around. He already is! And he is so good at easing my natural nervous emotions about becoming parents.
He always has the right things to say and his calming attitude is so helpful.
He has been so supportive with our choice to use hypnobabies, and has become a HUGE part of how our labor and delivery will go. With our choice to have a natural birth, It's really comforting to me, knowing that although I am the only one that can get this baby out of me, he is going to be right there by my side supporting me through every second of it.
I am really excited to see him take that role when the time comes. He has already been so amazing.
The time is getting closer and closer. I compare the time we have left to things like next time we have to get our oil changed, we will have a baby! And that makes it sound sooooo soon!
I only have 20 days of work left! Well I guess I should say 20 days left at my job, since the real work is going to begin when I get to start taking care of a baby!
I am so blessed and grateful that I can stay at home with our babies.